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I know already I just feel it, I am going to blow it! Today is my husbands family holiday get together. Long story, but my mother in law was in the hospital over the holidays so it was postponed until today! She has a lot of mental health issues and has long before I met my husband! Long story made short, every year or so she feels like she no longer needs to take her medicine that she needs and stop taking it! She ends up in the hospital and gets her son’s and husband to bend over back words and cater to her every whim. I don’t mean to sound cold, but I have lived with this for almost 29 years. She has never really liked me and has done really nasty things to me over the years and it took my husband many years to realize it was not me that she does a lot of things for attention. I am the bad daughter in law, I am the only one who does not cater to her. I treat her decent but I don’t go out of my way to kiss her butt, therefore I am not a good person in her eyes. I have even been accuse by her of turning her grandchildren against her, needless to say she did this herself. My son’s are 17, 22, and 26 they see it for themselves and have not really turned against her, but distance themselves from her.

Today will be hard as I have to be on my best behavior and keep my mouth shut, that is the hard part, as so often I speak without thinking. I am an emotional eater and I know I will blow it big time, but then tomorrow will be a new day and back on track.

Wish me luck, I really need it today!

Have a great day buddies!