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this is a horrible week………

First off thank you buddies for being there for me…..

Monday was a horrible day for me……..for those of you who don’t know I am a bus monitor for special needs children. We were taking them home from school and still had two children to drop off and we had an accident! No one was hurt, just shook up! Our bus hit a car in front of us and thecar then hit a stopped school bus! They also had elementary children on board. It was horrible! I don’t know exactly what happened because my attention was focused on my children which is my job! They were so many State Troopers I thought I was on Cops! At least 5 of them got on board my bus at different times and asked me the same questions…..one even told me he heard that one of my children was not fastened in her seat! I told him I had 2 children on board and showed him which seats they were strapped in and then he goes……….I thought so! They couldn’t believe I did not know how the accident occured and like I kept telling them I was doing my job which is to watch the children, not the driver. Well my driver was let go and I can understand why, but after working with him so long it is really sad he is an older man who just lost his wife a year ago and I worry how this is going to affect him! The parents were wonderful when they came and tgot their children and hugged me and thanked me for taking such good care of their children and were concerened for me. I am now training a new driver and I like her okay, but it will be hard for me to get use to someone new. It is weird I use to work with her before about 8 years ago when I worked at Wal-Mart.

I don’t know why I have been having such crap going on in my life. I don’t know what I did to deserve it…..they said God doesn’t give you more than you can handle, but I sure hope he is giving me all he is going to give me for awhile, because I don’t know how much more I can take.

Sticking to plan, I know that screwing up my diet is not going to make things any better and right now eating right is the only thing I feel I have control over. This is weird for me because always in the past I have used anything and everything I can for excuses to eat.

I hope that everyone is having a great week!