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I am glad this week is over! I don’t know for sure what my problem is (was)! Between feeling guilty over quitting my p/t job. Hubby told me to quit, he knew how unhappy I was with it. I still feel guilty, like I am not doing my part in getting out of debt. I love I can now take the grandkids again on the weekends (I have my oldest granddaughter Natasha this weekend)! Maybe it was self-sabatoge, whatever it was it is going to stop! I have come to far to go, back to the way I was. At least for the time being I am giving up the program I was using. I am going to just try to watch calories, fat and use portion control. I will keep a food journal and excercise journal too! I am going to try to be honest with myself and do whatever it takes to get where I want to be! I am the Queen of excuses and I have to quit making them for everything I do. I know that there are many things in my life I cannot control, but the way I eat and my health is one thing I can and should be controling. Wednesday was the worst day of all I ate like a pig and then wondered why I felt so sick to my stomach. I never want to feel like that again.

I hope everyone is having a great weekend!

I was able to change my weight loss ticker, after over a month. I am back on track and have lost 3 lbs. this week. It has been a struggle to get back on track and stay on track.

Well I may have to work tonight for the last time with my weekend job. I still don’t know I have to call in a bit. I may have to train the new guy! I am not looking forward to it. Yesterday when I picked up my pay they deducted $12.00 for shortages on lottery tickets, when I worked my lottery came out even when I did the paperwork and yet they claimed I was short and I had to pay for a shortage. One big reason I am leaving the job!

Hubby is working a double today with his weekend job, but he has tomorrow off. He has a 7 hr. wine tour today and then he takes a group on a 6 hr. bar hopping trip tonight! Hubby probably won’t be home until at least 3 a.m.! He loves his weekend job, he is a people person!

I hope everyone is having a good weekend!

yesterday I called to give my notice for the weekend job, and she already has someone she is training (this new person was going to be for fill ins). I was giving her a two week notice but I may not even have to work this weekend. It is okay by me on that note, but I was willing to give a two week notice, but on the same note she is not giving me the opportunity too. Oh, well good ridance. I felt such a relief when I called and got it over with.

Yes, I do have a wonderful hubby. He knows me and how I feel. He knew how bad my heart was breaking when the grandkids asked me “NaNa do you work tomorrow?” and I had to say YES! They are so use to spending time with me at least one of them every weekend. I too was getting bummed out without my grandkid fix.

I am still on track and I plan on staying that way!

Have a great day buddies!

much better physically being back on track. Mentally I just feel drained. I am job searching and I am going to give notice for my weekend job. I will give her a notice that I will work the next two weekends and then I am done. I can’t deal with the way things are done there and the feeling of no time for me. I am also so use to my grandma time on the weekends it breaks my heart not to spend the time with my grandkids like I am use to. My husband thankfully agrees with me totally there. He is making good money with his weekend job as limo driver and feels the piddly amount of money I am making is not worth the feelings I am having. Nothing is worth the way this has been making me feel.

I hope all my buddies are having a great day!

after a few weeks of messing up! I was up about 1/4 of a pound this week. I am determined not to let things mess me up again. I have come so far and I will not give up! I am tired of converting back to my old habits when things stress me out!!

I actually hate my weekend job. Things are just not what I am use to. I have worked running cash register and things are just to screwy for me at the little store. One thing I hate is they run the same drawer the whole day!! The closer does all the paper work. I had $3.00 deducted from my pay for a shortage on lottery tickets (did I do it or did the person before me?) The closer does so much more than the rest, from sweeping and mopping and stocking everything (beer just flies out of there). I just can’t keep up I am thinking about going back to Wal-Mart if the other job I am trying to get does not come through!

Hubby is working all day and I am working all evening! I don’t like it when we don’t have any time together. Even after all these years (almost 29), I love spending time with him, even if it is doing nothing much.

Well enough complaining!

Have a great Sunday buddies!