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Another evening all to myself! I should really enjoy it! I know many of you would really like it, don’t get me wrong sometimes I do! Hubby is working the second job tonight. He usually only does the second job on the weekends, but they really needed him to do a shuttle tonight between the college and the water park. He  came home for about 5 minutes and was out the door again. Since I only need to make dinner for myself I will just find something quick and easy! I could get some extra cleaning projects done……. I can get in some extra excercise too. I won’t do that when anyone is home. I do my excercise in the morning before work and/or after I get home and before hubby gets home.

I hope you are all having a great evening!

I was getting ready for work this morning and I caught the news it mentioned the County I transport children in. It mentioned a 6 year old boy being killed by a pit bull!! I listened not realizing it would be a child I knew. His name was Sabin. He was a wonderful little boy, he didn’t talk a lot, but he was a loveable little boy. I was his bus monitor when I first began this job. They tell you not to pick favorites, well it couldn’t be helped. I often thought about Sabin and how he was doing. You become attached to these children and it saddens you when they grow up and go off to regular school. Now today I am saddened to hear of his death at 6 years old! So senseless and sad!!

I don’t feel like posting about myself today. I just want to share my feelings. Why do people allow their dogs to run free or maybe it was his dads dog, if it was why would he be alone feeding the dog. I am just so saddened by the whole thing. Please keep this family in your thoughts and prayers.

News Monday, July 30, 2007

I am also realy upset about my grandson having tests on Wednesday and I can’t be there.  My daughter in law is also a bus monitor and of course she needs the day off. I called the boss and I was so upset with him, partly Cody, but probably the whole day with Sabin too. I was so pissed I tried to explain how I really thought I should be there for Cody’s test and he told me he couldn’t give me the day off as he didn’t even know how he was going to cover Krystal. I hung up on him, oh well I don’t think he will fire me as they don’t have anyone to cover for me!!

Well I guess I will go journal my food and check some blogs.

I have tried posting all morning and I couldn’t do it. Hope it works this time. I am so frustrated with everything today.

Update on my grandson Cody:

Cody will be having an MRI on Wednesday! A little over 2 years ago the doctors said he hadTransverse Myelitis. Now they think he was misdiagnosed! They now think he has Syringomyelia! I will give you a little information on that if you want to know more I will give you a couple sites where you can learn more!

This week was hard not returning to my old ways of stress eating. I mangaged to lose 4 lbs.

We also got to see our granddaughter Mercedes, last night. She is almost 3 years old and we have only seen her 4 times. They tell us we can see her whenever we want, but they are constantly moving and hard to track down. She is the daughter of my middle son who is not with the mother and it is hard, she tells me she wants us to be a part of Mercedes life and then they make it difficult. It was nice to see her, but also hard. We had not seen her since Christmas time and she did not realy remember us!

I am going to stick with this and try not reverting to my old ways. I have done it so far and I will continue.

Thank you all my buddies who are sending me those good thoughts and prayers. We sure need them right now!

Hugs to you all and have a good weekend!

What is syringomyelia? (sear-IN-go-my-ELL-ya)

Syringomyelia (SM) is a disorder in which a cyst forms within the spinal cord. This cyst, called a syrinx, expands and elongates over time, destroying the center of the cord. Since the spinal cord connects the brain to the nerves in the extremities, this damage may result in pain, weakness, and stiffness in the back, shoulders, arms or legs. Other symptoms may include headaches and loss of the ability to feel extremes of hot or cold, especially in the hands and disruption in body temperature. SM may also adversely affect sweating, sexual function and bladder and bowel control.

What causes Syringomyelia?

In either case, the condition may lie dormant and undetected for months or years until a symptom or variety of symptoms become bothersome enough to warrant medical attention. Many people with SM are not diagnosed until mid-life.

A number of medical conditions can cause an obstruction in the normal flow of cerebrospinal fluid (CSF), redirecting it to the spinal cord itself. This results in the formation of a syrinx (cyst that fills with CSF). Pressure differences along the spine cause the fluid to move within the cyst. It is believed that this continual movement of fluid results in cyst growth and further damage to the spinal cord and connecting nerves.

Yesterday, my grandson who is 7, had to have some medical tests. A little over 2 years ago he was very sick and spent a month in the hospital. He had transverse myelitis (I am sure I spelled it wrong) and he has a lot of neurological damage. He has therapy and has not made a lot of improvements, he has a metabalism problem and does not gain weight, he weighs only 47 lbs. He is going to be having more tests and a MRI. He already has counseling because of how this effects him mentally not being able to do things he was able to do before and now they recommend he see a pschycologist more. When my daughter in law told me this all I wanted to do was break down and cry, but I held it back because my grandson does not need to see this, but as soon as we left to come home I did. I have had a really sleepless night and trying to cope with this. They say his physical progress will probably not get any better. I know I can count on my buddies here to keep Cody in your thoughts and prayers.

I better go get ready for work! I have to keep my mind on other things to get through without falling back on my old ways of dealing with stress!

Have a good one!

woo hoo!! I tried on a pair of jeans that I don’t know the last time I wore them, but the last time I tried them on I couldn’t barely get them over my hips let alone zip, now they fit me comfortable!! During my break today I went to the thrift shop and picked up some more jeans and stuff, hubby wanted me to get some clothes that fit, he says my clothes are to baggy!! I don’t want to put to much money into clothes until I reach my goal so I figured this is my best bet!

I have been thinking about how much I have changed in a little under a year since getting serious about losing weight! When I first started, I got so upset with my husband when he began telling everyone we worked with how good I was doing at losing weight. I didn’t like him talking to people about my diet. I know why, I was afraid of failure! I always started out diets in the past with a gung ho attittude and then it fizzled out and I gained it all back and then some. I had no confidence in myself that I would succeed! Now, I love it when my hubby brags about how good I am doing and how great I look.  I always did everything for everyone at home before and put myself last, now I make time for me, and let things slide that I never would have before. I figure my housework will always be there and if hubby bitches to much, oh well than maybe he can just jump in and help more. I can’t do it all, and I need to do this for me!

I hope everyone is having a great day! Have a good one!

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Hubby wants to cook out tonight……hmmmmmmm I have to make macaroni salad and potato salad. I have been good all day and have it all figured already on my food journal. I am having both macaroni and potato salad with my dinner, but only a half a cup each. I have to learn to eat in moderation, this is for life, not just until I lose the weight. I have to learn how to eat good amounts. Yes, I actually use the measuring cups too, maybe eventually I will know just by looking, but I am not taking that chance now! Hubby and son and his girl friend are having angus burgers, but me I will have a turkey burger! I will even have enough calories left for a 100 calorie Breyer ice cream cup for later……they are good too!

Well I better go finish up the salads, hope I can get back on later to check on blogs!

Have a good one everybody!

(my hubby does that but in a good natured way) I am so excited I can now use my Richard Simmons excercise videos! We had to get a new DVD player so I talked my hubby into getting a DVD/VCR combo so I could uset my videos! I think this will motivate me more to excercise! I love music and I love to dance! Richard Simmons, may be kind of goofy, but he has helped a lot of people! I need some more motivation to actually get off my butt and do more excercise!

I also have decided to go back to using the food journal here at buddy slim! I think I keep better track on here than when I write it on paper!

Hubby and I even went out to lunch today and I ordered a lot healthier than I normaly would at this restaraunt my favorite thing is a stuffed bacon cheddar burger on a hard roll with french fries with gravy on the side, instead I had grilled chicken with lettuce and tomatoes on a pita, with cottage cheese!!

I hope you all had a good weekend and that you have a good week!

but sometimes it seems like it! Except for messing up on Sunday, I have busting my butt and sticking to plan, most days even under on calories, but I lost a total of half a pound! I keep telling myself it is better than a gain or staying the same!

Natasha is out playing with Uncle Ethan, so I get a few minutes computer time. I am lucky that he is such a good Uncle and loves playing with the kids. My grandson called this morning and wants PaPa to pick him up to come spend the night when PaPa is done work today! Of course NaNa can’t say NO!

Well I am off to read a few blogs before Natasha comes in wanting lunch!

Have a good one!

My hubby has to work both Saturday and Sunday with his weekend job, but I have my 4 year old grandaughter all weekend. I have not had any grandchildren in a couple weeks (unusual for me)! I can’t wait until she gets here. I have been yard sale and thrift store and dollar store shopping. I bough a Barbie doll case some fashion dolls and lots of clothes and accessories, play make up and jewelry and a jump rope, plus some other additions to nana’s toy box. I raised three boys so I get to do things with Natasha I never got to do with my boys. I may not get on much over the weekend unless she takes a nap which is rare with that one, she is a always raring to go!

After Sunday’s mess up I have been so good all week sticking to plan, but the scales tell me different. I was up a pound a the beginging of the week and as of today I am still up .25 of a lb. I am hoping by my weigh in tomorrow morning to see a loss, but if not it is not the end of the world. I will just keep on going. I will get there no matter what!

I hope all my buddies are having a good week!

Have a good weekend!