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The past couple of days, I have had to go into base where I work, I usually leave from home! For those of you who don’t know, my hubby and I work for the same company (I don’t recommend this to anyone)! The boss likes my phone skills so when it is time for new preschool runs to start he asks me to come in and make the phone calls to parents giving them the pick up and drop off times for their children. This makes me feel good that I am counted on for something I feel is important ( good communication between the parents and the company)! Well yesterday was a big safety meeting too so everybody was there and a lot of them I hardly ever see since I don’t come in much!! I got tons of compliments on my weight loss and I was feeling great about it! I was flying high and I felt wonderful!! Then hubby brought it all crashing down!! We were grocery shopping! Last week when we went shopping he tells me he is not buying his usual little debbies and other junk, he was going to buy fruits and stuff, and I was like Wow! okay, but I did not make a big deal of it!! This week we are shopping and all of a sudden he starts putting little debbies in the cart, and all I said was what happened to not buying these anymore? He goes well I didn’t lose anything! I said so you are going to quit allready? He then proceeds to tell me if I want to be a healthnut go ahead, but he is going to eat what he wants, I was like okay! We continue to shop and we get to the baking aisle and I asked do you want me to get brownies to make for the picnic we are going too. All of a sudden he is like NO, I don’t want it, you just be a healthnut and buy whatever you want, but don’t you dare ever tell me what to eat again!! He goes stomping out of the store leaving me standing there wondering what the hell is going on! I can feel the tears welling up in my eyes and I am telling myself don’t give up!! I continue to shop and then it is like CLICK…… I didn’t do a thing!! For some reason, he doesn’t like my new found confidence……..he feels threatened by the compliments I have been getting all day!! Why after almost 29 years is he feeling threatened by this, doesn’t he know how much I love him!! Sure he gives me compiments and tells me how good I look and how proud he is of me! But how proud of me is he? I don’t know what to do, but I do know one thing!! I am not giving up! I won’t give up! This has been one rambling blog, but I have to get it off my chest and try to move on and not stress myself!! Does he really want to make me cave in?…….Does he really feel so threatened by the new more confident me?………I think we need to have a talk about this, but right now, the hurt is just to raw…..I don’t want to argue with him about it, but It was like a big slap in the face!!

Thanks for listening!!

Well here is to a better day!

I hope you all have a super wonderful day and holiday weekend!!