nana4

Right now I am not sure where I am going with my diet. I am not quite sure what is happening! I have maintained 2 weeks in a row, and have some peronal family issues that are eating away at me. My self talk is just not working when it comes to comfort eating. I do it and then I feel sick for doing it! It makes me feel so low for doing it and when I do it I know how I am going to feel yet I do it anyways! I am proud of what I have accomplished! I have made it almost half way to my main goal! Is it self-sabatoge? Is it a fear of the unknown! I have been overweight most of my life, am I afraid of not having the fat me to  hide behind, and use for an excuse, (I can’t do that because of my weight!)? I sent a message to Kim, the head of the Hot Rods and told her I needed to leave the Hot Rods! I feel I am not doing my part as a member of the Hot Rods! It is unfair to the others that are working hard when I am not! I need to get my s#%t together and right now I am not sure how I am going to do it or when! I will not give up! I am determined to continue my journey. Maybe I am giving myself a pity party or maybe it is just something else new for me to deal with! I am so thankful for my buddies that helped me come this far! I would be so thankful to anyone who has any ideas on what to do when you hit a cross road like this.

I hope you are all having a great week!