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I am having a quiet Sunday! Hubby is off to work! We had a nice quiet day yesterday together without the grandkids! For those of you who don’t know me to well, this does not happen often! As a matter of fact, next weekend I am taking my 4 yr. old grandaughter and her 2 yr. old sister! Oh, my what have I done! LOL!!

Last night was a Halloween party at my nieces! OOOOPS! Now this brings up the fact of mindless eating! I had eaten a piece of candy and was about ready to stick my hand back in the bowl for another, and my sweet daughter in law pulled it away! She just looked me in the eye and gave me a smile and said, Mom I am just looking out for you! It was like a kick in the butt! I am glad that my family is there for the support when I do dumb things like that!

Today I am hauling out my closet again! My sister-in-law who I was so worried about (she is a diabetic and really having a lot of health problems) has been on her own weight loss journey and doing amazing, is going to get my old stuff! She has lost 25 lbs. herself now! She is now into the size I just shrunk out of!  I am so glad that she is doing so well with her journey and reaping the benefits of turning her health problems around!

Well I am off to finish my closet!

I hope everyone is having a good weekend!

of my hubby’s weight loss journey! Last night was a trip in itself! The shopping experience was something else! The biggest problems there are he is not a fresh fruit or veggie eater, and if it is labeled diet he thinks it is not going to taste good! I really wish he did not shop with me and maybe I could trick him into trying something! Oh Well! My main goal with him is to get rid of the Little Debbies, and the chips and junk for right now! I am proud to say, we bought none of that! He picked out some single serve soups and some canned lite fruit. He will only white bread and would not even try lite white bread! I am going to take this slow with him any good changes are better than no changes and I don’t want him giving up!

Last night I went to Fashion Bug. I was going to use my gift certificate to find something nice for the Holiday Parties and my hubby’s class reunion. I was so dissapointed! Fashion Bug use to be my favorite store. I have not been there in so long as I hate spending money on clothes that I don’t plan on wearing for long. With my job it is very casual and I wear jeans and t-shirts and things like that, so I have been thrift store shopping for clothes until I get to my goal weight. Well I left there with my gift certificate and didn’t buy a thing! Most of the clothes for plus sizes (which I am still wearing) were really ugly! My daughter-in-law is like a size 4 or something like that found some really cute tops for like realy cheap! I guess I will hold on to my gift certificate until I am no longer in the plus sizes!

Today is going to be a great day! Hubby has the day off! We have no kids or grandkids this weekend! We are going to get some end of season yard work done and go to the thrift store this morning! Tonight is a Halloween Party at my nieces! Tomorrow hubby works his second job doing wine tours. Tomorrow my plans include cleaning my pantry and cupboards and sorting out my winter and fall clothes. Yesterday I put on a pair of pants from last fall I had packed away and I could pull them off without unzipping them and they were so baggy it was unbelievable! I need to see what I can wear and what I have to give away! Some of my sweaters and shirts should be okay if a little big, but I don’t want to lose my pants in  front of everyone!

Today is my weigh in day! I am down 2.5, but of course you can only put in whole pounds on the weight ticker!

I hope everyone is having a great weekend! I probably won’t get back on until tomorrow, cuz hubby gets my attention today!

((((((HuGs))))))

My hubby tells me last night, how proud he is of me and the weight loss I have accomplished. He also tells me that starting this weeken he is going to join me on this weigh loss journey. Let me tell you while this makes me happy, it also a little nerve racking! This is not the first time he has told me that since I began this journey over a year ago! His first attempt he lost 12 lbs. rather quickly! He is a junk food junkie, and he mainly just eliminated his Little Debbies and sodas and chips! Slowly all of these things creeped back into our home and he put that weight right back on! His last attempt lasted a week and he actully got quite grouchy with me and told me if I wanted to be a Health Nut, go right ahead, but I was never to tell him what he was going to eat again, that he would eat what he wanted, when he wanted! I was like okay, then I will never help you again! We had a good talk about how this is going to work this time! I told him I don’t expect him to eat things I do that he does not like, and I will make him healthier lunches for work! I told him that if I am going to do this for him I expect that he eats what I pack and not eat junk from the vending machines! There are also a couple co-workers who bake cookies and other treats all the time and bring them in! Not a problem as long as they start leaving them in the break room! The problem is they like to leave them on his desk! He is the dispatcher at his job and when the drivers come in they walk past his desk, and the bakers leave the goodies there! I told him the next time they do just ask them niceley to please leave the goodies in the break-room, out of site out of mind! He worries that he does not have the will power, I told him it is not easy, but look what I have done! I told him, I will help any way I can, but don’t get angry with me like you have in the past! I told him, I am doing this to not only look better, but to be healthier and I want us to be healthier together! I really hope it works this time!

I have been sticking to plan so well, that I almost amaze myself! What I need to do is motivate myself for more excercise! I am hoping that with the two of us doing this together we can motivate each other!

I hope all of my buddies are Kicking Butt this week!

Have a good one!

Yes, I am having a love, hate relationship! It is with my scales! I cannot stay off the things! I keep telling myself that I am going to have my hubby hide them, but I don’t do it! I weigh myself every morning and every night! I get so pysched when it shows a loss it motivates, me but makes me feel down when it shows a gain or maintain! Right now I am so pysched because it looks like a loss of 3 lbs. so far this week, but alas who knows what tomorrow will bring. I do not officiall weigh in until Saturday!

Mmmmmmmmm I had a great spaggetti dinner tonight with my spaggetti squash! I froze the extra so I am prepared for the next spaggetti night! I need to buy some more so I can have it on hand when it is no longer in season!

I am not quite as stressed out as I have been, but still feeling a little down. Hubby doesn’t understand why I can’t just let it go now! This is a problem I have always had, I have a hard time letting go of hurt feelings! I feel betrayed and hurt for something I felt was doing something good!

Well it is off to get some things done, before the Biggest Loser comes on! I love that show!

Have a good one!

I had a good long talk with hubby over the weekend about all the drama at work! I told him how bad I feel that he is not defending me or sticking up for me! I told him I know it is a sticky situation with him being in a supervisor postition and having to deal with these people every day, but enough is enough! This is what these people are counting on! They know it is driving a wedge because they are doing this! I told him he needs to take a stand and have a talk with the boss and tell him that this cannot continue! I have done a lot of research over the weekend on workplace harrassment and bullying and also on sexual harrassment! I am taking a stand and I will not tolerate the emotional abuse that I have had to deal with! I will not be made to feel uncomfortable every time I go into base! I will not be ridiculed because I have different values than the majority! I will not be made to feel like I am in the wrong because of the filthy talk that makes me uncomfortable or the childish behavior and rudeness I encounter! I will fight back for my rights! Well hubby called me a little while ago. The employees are being told that this type of behavior will no longer be tolerated! I feel so much better knowing that he took a stand for me with the boss and with the co-workers. I know that things have been this way for too long and people are not going to like it, but they are now put on warning that this is no longer tolerated! I still have not made up my mind on attending the Christmas Party! I really have no desire to attend a party with people like this, but my husband is exected to attend because of his position and this makes another sticky situation! I am trying to be strong, but don’t know if I am strong enough to attend a social function with all of the crap I have dealt with lately!

I had some family issues with my kids and grandkids over the weekend on top of the other issues. Last night was not a good night for me! I just wanted to eat everything in sight! I did a little binging, but nothing as terrible as what I would have done in the past! I had a big bowl of sugar free ice cream with coolwhip on top! It satisfied my urge for something gooey and sweet, but it was about 3 or 4 (I didn’t measure it) of what a serving should be! I feel it could have been worse so I am not even going to worry about it! I at least took notice of what I was doing! I am back on track and that is what counts!

I hope everyone is having an awesome day!

That is why I resigned my committe position yesterday! I am thinking of myself and the added stress I do not want or need! All three of said we were going to resign, but only 2 of us did. My friend Shelly and I both resigned and the new committe member didn’t! We know this was her plan all along.  She has been behind our backs with the boss and co-workers blaming us for everything. She said everything we had discussed was our own personal issues and she had nothing to do with it! She is all in her own glory now planning the holiday party just the way she wanted it all along. I don’t much care because I will not be attending. Why would I want to attend a party with people like that.

On a positive note, we went to dinner at Applebees last night and I ate well, but I did have a strawberry daiquiri. I feel it could have been worse I looked up the calories for a strawberry daiquiri and it is 231 calories. I had that saved up in my calorie bank this week! I stayed on plan so my extra calories were used on that one drink(boy after the week I had I would have liked another!

I also had a 2 lb. loss this week! I earned a red star! Slow and steady! If I could lose 2 lbs. this week I know I will continue to lose!

Have a great weekend everyone!

Well I won’t be on here today during my break between runs. I have to go into that place again that dreaded place called work. I truly love not going in there and leaving right from home. Weeks and months can go by without going in there. Now the committee really wants to do something, so having meetings is something important. I know that some people there like it the way things are and don’t want to see changes for the good of all of the employees and some of them are going to fight it all the way! I have become more unpopular than I have ever been. I tell myself that it doesn’t bother me, but it does to certain extent. Who doesn’t want to be liked? Who doesn’t want people to be appreciative of what you are trying to do for everyone? If the majority of the people don’t like it I will have to remind myself to fight for the minority that do including myself. People need to feel comfortable in their workplace! Work place hostility is worse than people think it is. I have a boss who overlooks to much in order to keep the majority happy and this is not fair. I don’t know what to expect today and this has me on edge. My hubby doesn’t seem to want me to come in today! When I mentioned the meeting he told me he didn’t know we were having a meeting today and the boss didn’t know we were either. I told him I didn’ t know we had to ask permission to have a meeting! Maybe I will get a phone call before going in today to tell me we can’t have a meeting, if this happens, I am seriously thinking of resigning from the committe because I will know that this is going to be a total downhill battle.

On a postive note, I am going out to dinner tonight after doing some research on the nutritional values of food items at Applebees and I know that I can eat out tonight making good food choices!

I hope you all have a good weekend!

I have had a pretty crappy week as you can tell from my last few previous blogs! I have turned this into something positive! I have controlled my stress eating all week and have even banked away a few extra calories for Friday night when hubby and I are going out to eat with friends. I have always felt that I was entitled to eat every last calorie for the day! This week I have not done that, I have saved calories for Friday! Eating out is difficult for me, when I have so many food choices! I always plan on sticking to plan and I try not to eat everything on my plate, but I was raised with clean your plate! I now try to take home half of what is on my plate.

Last night I got a little grumpy with hubby! I think he is going to be more understanding now (I hope so)! He is a Little Debbie snack fanatic! After the nice dinner I made he is cramming down those snacks and all of a sudden I pictured myself cramming them down his throat (I know thats not nice and I wouldn’t realy do it)! I just bit my tongue, but about an hour later he says, gee I’m hungry I guess I will go have a snack! I  told him, I am going in the bedroom and watch TV! I told him, it is enough that I have to see those snacks in the cupboard all the time and pack them in his  lunch every day let alone having him anounce when he is having a snack, Just Do It, you don’t have to tell me every time you get a snack! He was on his speal about he should be able to eat what he wants when he wants….blah blah blah! I told him go ahead, but quit telling me your doing it! No, I don’t think he is intentionally trying to sabatoge me, but I think he just doesn’t understand how tough this is for me! Most of the time it doesn’t bother me this much, but this has been a stressful week for me, and even after over a year on this journey I still want to revert back to my old habits at times!

On a good note, I put on a sweatshirt this morning that I have not worn in like forever! It is and X-L and I have room it is not even tight! This is wonderful to me after wearing 2 and 3 X for so long!

Hope my buddies are all having a great week!

Follow up on yesterday’s blog. The boss went out in parking lot and looked in busses yesterday and he found all of my stuff in the back of an old bus that is no longer in service and was being junked! Whoever took my stuff was just being plain old mean! I will remind myself on Friday when I have to go into that place for a meeting to finalize the Christmas Party that I am there for a paycheck not to make friends. People there are sneaky and wont’ attack me the way they do others.

I am amazing myself how well I am staying on plan and counting and journaling my food intake. I have to write down the food before I eat it and it really holds me accountable.

I just wanted to let everyone know, that yesterday’s vent did me good. I needed to get everything off my chest or I don’t know how well I would have done talking myself out of stress eating. I have done it so long, and it has been such a part of me even after a year, I still find myself thinking of food everytime I get upset!

Have a great day, buddies!

I try to be more positive and I try to comment back to people who are down on themselves! Then Wham I get a dose of sh*t thrown at me!

I love my job! For those of you who don’t know, I am a bus monitor for a private company. I am a monitor for 5 wonderful 3 yr. old special needs children! I have a great driver and we work together wonderful as a TEAM! The problem is I am on the Grievence committee at work! Yup, speak up for yourself and the people who are afraid to speak up for themselves because they know that there will be some kind of reprecussion! Well on Friday the committee had a meeting and I typed up the minutes over the weekend and sent them in to work with my hubby (he works for the same company)! Whoooooo the shit hit the fan. I don’t go into work as I get picked up at home! I like it that way! The other two committe members got verbally attacked and told they were being petty! Why, because we told it like it was! That the filthy sexual explicit talk makes people uncomfortable and the comments that now we have to watch what we say, because so and so is here and she doesn’t like it! The safety issues of employees hanging out in undesignated areas! The issue of employee dress code that we represent our company and should all dress appropriateley! I guess what the committee really is is bullsh^t! I guess what we are really suppose to do is nothing except plan the holiday party! The other two members and I that were elected by these same co-workers to represent them, have been attacked! They were treated so badly yesterday that they called me at home wanting to quit the committee, and I had to talk them out of it! I don’t go in there so the verbal attack didn’t happen to me! Instead they got back at me another way, and there is not a thing I can do! I want to quit myself, but they aren’t going to get that satisfaction out of me! My driver and I keep some personally purchased items on our bus, and someone stole them! They were on the bus during my morning run! I had a little basket up by my seat in which I had my hand sanitizer and antibacteria wipes (you know when you have to wipe little ones noses you need to get rid of the germies)! We had a big box in the back in which I had window cleaner and anitbacterial cleaner and an extra hoody and a stepping stool for my little ones to be able to climb into there seats! I purchased these things with my own money, they did not belong to the company! Well I wanted to post something at work and hubby tells me I can’t because I can’t accuse anyone! Well I wasn’t accusing anyone! (not one person, just the idea I know it was stolen)! It didn’t fly off the bus on its own! Well go figure in that place they know there are theives why else would they screw down the can opener in the break room!!! They also had to take the coffee maker out of the break room and put it in the front office because people were stealing coffee and sugar! They keep the toilet paper and other supplies under lock and key! I have had a hoody stolen out of a vehicle before, and it was never found! Why am I not surprised! I am upset, but I know what goes around comes around!

On a postive note! I did not revert back to stress eating! It isn’t going to make me feel better! I did feel better knowing I can stick to my plan even under this stress!

I hope everyone is having a great week, and I am going to try to turn mine around now that I have vented to you all!

(((((HUGS))))))