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I don’t get it! I was doing so good with the self talk for awhile. I have lost 91 lbs. and now I am stress eating like a crazy woman! Yesterday, started off like crap! Hubby had to go to our corporate office for a meeting, and that witch was doing his job instead of me! I was so hurt! Hubby promised to call me during his breaks and I never heard from him all day! I was so hurt! I ate and ate! Mostly good things, just not good portions! Then hubby comes home and tells me that he got a promotion (he has already been doing most of this job anyways), so the promotion is well deserved! He is going to have a choice between a raise and med insurance (only management gets insurance in the company we work for)! Of course we are taking the insurance, but both would have been nice! He also got an award for doing his job so well! The problem now being I think it will get tougher for me in that place! I already hear about me getting favortism! Honestly I don’t, I think he is tougher on me because I am his wife!

Well today starts the ballots for the committeee I resigned from! I am rerunning, because I was tricked into my resignation by that witch! She is using it for her own gains, and not for all employees! I don’t trust her to throw the election. She is not going to like it, but I have discussed this with my husband and everyone is going to have to sign in when they cast their vote so there is not double voting! She is not going to be allowed to count the votes and the number of votes will be show for all candidates. I want this election to be fair and square whether I win or lose! I know quite a few who  plan on voting for me and I know that it is not right if it comes down to me only getting a couple votes! She is pissed that I was put back on the ballot! I did it because the committee is important to everyone and at this point she did what she did, just for the recognition of planning the Christmas Party all on her own and the way she wanted it with no regards to the rest of the employees!

I am back on track and I am going to bust my butt this week! I am going to lose 100 lbs. by Christmas!

Have a great day buddies!

I not only lost the 1.5 lbs. that I gained last week, I lost another 2.5 lbs. Okay so it wasn’t a terrible eating week, but I did mess up a few times, so I am totally shocked! It was a good shock, but I am amazed! Probably the extra excercise with the new dog helped too!

I am still feeling kind of down, but hanging in there! Hubby is working again…….but a good friend is suppose to come visit! We have not gotten together in so long and it will be great to have a girly gab session with her and catch up on things!

I got tons of work at home done yesterday and it really felt good to get things done I have been putting off. I love my grandkids dearly, but nothing gets done when they are here! Well nothing called work any ways!!

I am off to change my weight ticker!! Woo Hoo! I am so excited!!

I hope every one is having a super weekend!

Hugs…….

Thank you buddies! I am hanging in there, but I am so mad right now I could spit nails. Adding insult to injury! Hubby has to go to our corporate office on Monday for a meeting, I have it off because of no school. I have always been asked to fill in for his job, because the boss knows I can handle it. Well I have found out, that the witch who stayed on the committee after saying she was going to resign has been asked to do it instead! Hubby is also hopping mad, as he does not want her working at his desk. He is having a talk with the boss about this, this morning! He doesn’t trust her snooping into things that she has no business with and plus the idea, I have always done it, I have more senority, I am losing a day because of no school! What’s up with this crap! GRRRRRRRRR I am already so down if you have read my earlier blog, and now this! She is also doing 50/50 each week, the half that does not go to the winner is suppose to be for the christmas party, but nobody has seen the money and it should be put away with the petty cash and other christmas party money, but the boss hasn’t even asked her about that, there is something fishy going on there!

I just need to vent before I just blow and go eat everything in site!!!

Off to pay bills and keep my mind off bullshit!

Have a great weekend buddies! I will try to!!!

Hugs……….

I have been kind of feeling down this week. I am trying to stick to healthier eating and not reverting to stress eating. I have not been keeping my food journal. I have been trying to eat right though.

My down feeling is now that the weather is changing and it is darker and colder, my husband is working more hours and some other family issues. It is so hard not to revert back to eating when feeling down. I seem to do good all day up until evening then I seem to want to eat before bed. I wake up during the night and I think of snacks in the cupboard……I have not eaten in the middle of the night since I began this journey, why do I want to do it now?

After having three of my grandkids last weekend, I am having a kid free weekend. I have tons of stuff to keep me busy over the weekend. I want to clean and rearrange cupboards and other things to get ready for the holidays. I have a long weekend as I have Monday off for Veterans Day, and next weekend I have a long weekend, because I have Friday off as my preschoolers on my bus have the day off for confrences. I am looking forward too 2 three day weekends. I will probably have a grandchild or two next weekend.

Well off to walk the dog before I go to work. I forgot I have another dog here now. He is actually my youngest son’s g/f dog, but I am taking care of him for awhile. Problem being I am already getting attatched.

Have a great weekend!

It was so easy to fall off track, but I am back on track and loving it! I feel so much better when I am eating right!

Don’t know what happened with hubby, but he gained a lb. this week! I know I sent him good lunches to work and made him good meals at home. I asked him if any co-workers brought in goodies, he said no. I left it at that! He has to want to do this, I can’t make him! He told me a co-worker brought him and the boss each a piece of lemon cake with cream cheese frosting (one of his favorites) today and he took one bite and gave the rest away. I hope he did, but I can’t worry about it! I have to just hope he wants it and when I sees what I am accomplishing he will want to do the same!

I am still worn out from having the grandkids, so I think I am going to go to bed early tonight! I love my grandkids dearly, but never three at a time again (ages 7, 4, and 2)!

I hope everyone is having a great week!

I was upset with hubby last night! He really annoys me sometimes. Sometimes I think he is insensitive to my feelings, but I know that I am probably just oversensitive! I binged big time! Oh, it would have been all good if it had been only one thing. I had a huge bowl of sugar free ice cream, I had two fat free bologna sandwiches with lite hellmans mayo, I had rice cakes, get the picture! I was reverting to my old ways of pigging out when I was upset! Did it make hubby feel bad? No! What happened was I got sick to my stomach and instead of seeing a loss this week I saw a gain!! It is done it is over and I am not going to beat myself up over it! I am doing the only thing I can! I am right back on track and I am determined not to blow it again anytime soon! I know I can’t say I will never blow it, because I can’t guarentee that, but I will be more cautious, because I have come to far to keep sabatoging myself!

I have 3 grandkids this weekend, so I have to make this quick their interest in the movie I put in is about up!

I hope everyone is having a good weekend!

Hugs………

I swear my kids cause me more stress now than when they were younger! My oldest and his wife have three children, and they have been having problems this past week. I have always said I would never butt into their business. This has been hard when I can see what it is doing to my grandkids. I can sit back and see what some of the problems are. Three kids at such a young age, they work different shifts so that my daughter in law is home during the day with the kids and my son is home in the evening with the kids. I am having all three kids this weekend. I have never had all three at once, but I know they need some kid free time to work things out! I am sure I will not be on here Saturday as hubby is working! I will have to play referee with the 4 year old and the 7 year old.

On to happier things, I went to my moms last night I have not had a chance to go see her in a few weeks (I need to make that a bigger priority)! Anyways she was like oh, my you look so good, I am so proud of you! One of my neices was there and she was like Aunt Bette Jo, every time I see you, you are smaller! My sister was like I can’t believe you are smaller than me now, what size do you where! I said Thank you out loud, but on the inside I was screaming YES!!! When I hear these compliments and my mom being so proud of me it makes me even prouder of myself and my accomplishments!

Hubbys plan seems to be going good at home! I pack him a good lunch and good things at home and that is all I can do there. I am not going to check up on his eating at work. He has to want this as much as he says he does if he wants it to work. I am going to help him as long as he wants my help. He is still drinking his regular sodas, but probably only one a day at work as far as I know. This is one thing I wish he would give up, but he won’t drink diet soda.

I have stuck pretty much to plan this week! I did eat a couple small chocolates at my moms last night, but had that already figured, so I had tried to eat lighter throughout the day yesterday!

Hope everyone is having a great week!