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I don’t usually make New Years Resolutions. I always break them.

I am going to call them my goals for the New Year!

1. Stop making excuses for not eating right and not excercising! This will be my most difficult as I am the Queen of excuses!

2. I will not let other peoples negativity affect me! I have done this alot this past year, mostly with my job. I can’t change other people, I can only change myself!

3. I will stop making excuses for finding a better job. Although I love my job (just not the work environment), I need to find something that pays better.

3. I will spend more time with my grandaughter Mercedes! I want the relationship with her I have with my other grandchildren. The problems with my son and his ex g/f have nothing to do with me. I cannot change this, I can only accept that this is the way things are.

I have decided to live by this poem. Most of you know it. I only knew the shorter version and I found this on the internet, and I would like to share it.

SERENITY PRAYER
(long version)
(see:The Origin of our Serenity Prayer)

God, grant me the Serenity
to accept the things
I cannot change Courage to change the
things I can, and the
Wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardship as the
pathway to peace.
Taking, as He did, this
sinful world as it is,
not as I would have it.
Trusting that He will make
all things right if I
surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy
in this life, and supremely
happy with Him forever in
the next.
Amen
(Copyright © The AA Grapevine, January, 1950.)

I hope you all have a wonderful New Year!

I had a wonderful Christmas. I love seeing Christmas through the eyes of my grandchildren. Woo Hoo I got to see them all. I saw my g/d Mercedes on Christmas Eve morning at her other grandmothers. I don’t get to see her any where as often as I would like. Every time I see her I am so amazed how much she looks and acts like her daddy! I just loved it that she is getting to know me and remember me more. I loved it when she grabbed me by the hand and took me into the living with room with her and said “sit here” and “will you play with me?” and handed me her new baby doll! I took some pictures of her with my new digital camera, but I am learning and they did not turn out the best, but at least I have some.

Christmas Eve night was spent at home with some family and my other g/kids. Christmas Day was spent at my oldest son’s with the g/k too. My grandson was sick on Christmas Eve, but feeling better by Christmas Day. I was sick by Christmas afternoon and most of yesterday.

I have my 4 year old g/d Natasha for a few days. She loves spending time with me when I get a break from work.

Now to get ready for the New Year and my oldest g/k Birthdays. Yes, the oldest two, have a B.D on January 1st. Brother and sister born 3 years apart. Cody is going to be 8 (where did the time go!?) Natasha will be 5 (going on 15?)

My whole diet and excercise was out the window over the holiday, now it is time to get my butt in gear!

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and I wish you a Very Happy New Year!

I finished up my Holiday baking, and of course I had to have some! I was up half the night with a tummy ache and still feel yucky this morning (serves me right)!

I usually send in cookies to work for everyone, but this year I decided not to do it! I made up tins of cookies and treats and each a new travel coffee mug, for the three co-workers that I also consider my friends and put on the cards from their Secret Santa! Hubby gets in there before anyone else so they will be surprised!

My son’s g/f is not still not doing well, but we are hoping and praying things will turn out okay, whatever happens!

I hope everyone is having a great week!

Have a good one!

I have decided after the Holidays, I am going back on my Carbohydrate Addicts Diet. I was on it for quite awhile and doing great. I hit a plateu I could not shake and went to counting calories. Right now, I am not doing to well. I just can’t seem to shake my stress, and late night eating. I have had so much with work and my youngest son. I know I have to shake this funk and get on with business, but finding it very difficult with the holidays too……..

My update on my son and his g/f. It does not look good at all, she has more blood work on Monday her levels keep going down.

My update on crap at work is hopefully soon something happens with that witch. I want to go in there so bad and tell her what I think, but I haven’t because of my hubby! Her latest shit is really driving me up the wall. The other day another co-worker told the boss and my hubby both that she has been telling people she is going to have my hubby’s job! The boss said no way! Which made my hubby feel better, but I am not sure it made me feel better, because I don’t trust him. That is a sad way to feel about your boss, but as far as I am concerned he is not a good boss, to allow what he has allowed. She had a party at work yesterday for a co-worker who is also a friend that is leaving after being with the company, which was okay, but then she added her little boy toy to the party who quit (he has been there 3 months). A lot of people thought this was not right. Like I said I did not go or contribute to the party and neither did hubby, he went out to lunch like he usually does on Fridays. Now she is talking about having a cookout every Friday during the summer. I guess she thinks this is a party committee instead of a greivance committee that helps plan parties when needed. The whole committee is a farce now! I went to another committee member with my grievance over the election. He promised to check things out and get back to me and he blew me off! I would have rather he called me back and said, you know what I think you are being petty, because you lost than to not call me back at all. I need to get this all off my chest because it is just holding me back with my dieting. I just can’t motivate myself like I once did!

Hope everyone is doing great!

Have an awesome weekend buddies!

for all the comments on my previous blog!

I have let them know I am here for them, but they needed to know I am not happy with it. They are so young and they both have a lot of growing up to do. I just thought that my son Ethan, would have seen the problems with his brothers and learned something from them.

My oldest son became a dad for the first time at 19 and his g/f was 16. They went on to have 2 more children and they finally got married when the youngest one was 1 year old. My middle son has a 3 year old daughter that we hardly see. He is not with the mother, and it is a long story. I just hoped that Ethan would have been more careful.

I have another snow day today. The weather is snowy here but not to bad (at least not yet), but it is suppose to get really bad where we transport our children. Our school was not cancelled yet, but the company decided not to send us that it was not worth the risk road wise or having us get stranded. My hubby made the decision, I guess he wanted to make sure I did not get standed away from home…..LMAO……….

Well I have gotten all of my gift wrapping caught up, so that was one accomplishment for today. I am mostly done with my shopping except a few gift certificates and hubby. He is usually the last one I buy for, he is too nosey. I get his home and wrapped before he knows it………..LOL….

Well I hope everyone is having a great day!

I just got off the phone with my 18 year old son. The one who just moved out! He had some wonderful (not really) news! He just told me his g/f is pregnant. Yup she is also only 18! Babies having babies!!! I am so disappointed in them. I just had a talk with them recently about this. I had heard a rumor she was pregnant so I confronted them and they denied it. I let them know what I thought about them having a baby. They have only been dating since summer! They haven’t a clue to what their lives have in store for them now! I don’t even know if my hubby knows yet! He is calling me this morning, I don’t know if I should tell him if he doesn’t know or wait until he gets home from work. I guess I will just have to wait and see if HIS son called him at work and told him!

I am really having a very hard time getting back on track. I have come to the conclusion that I am just going to work really extra hard to get through the Holidays and take things as they come!

I hope everyone is having a great week!

Yippeee! It was great! For those of you who don’t know I am a bus monitor for special needs preschoolers. Well anyways our first pickup is about and hour away, we are almost there and a parent calls my cell and tells me school is on a 2 hour delay! Yuck that stinks I am thinking, we will be stuck sitting around for 2 hours and then school will be so short that we won’t be able to go home inbetween runs. Well then I get a phone call saying school was cancelled so I only worked 2 hours this morning and had the rest of the day to myself! I got most of my Christmas decorating done. I have been slow at it this year, can’t quite get into the spirit of it, but I am now looking around and seeing all my Santas (I collect santas)! Hopefully hubby and I will put the tree up tonight and then I should be JOLLY!!

Had a great weekend! Friday night hubby and I went to his company party for his weekend job! He has a lot of nice coworkers there and a nice boss! He got a nice bonus and he has only been there since May!

On the other hand the Company Christmas Party for our job was on Saturday night! We did not attend! I have no regrets in that department! Last year over 40 people attended and this year by the time people decided if they were attending or not it was down to 28 people signed up! Well I talked to a friend who decided to attend and only 14 people showed up! I guess the boss was fit to be tied, and so was the witch who had planned the party!! Myself I think it is pretty funny! What goes around comes around and now maybe she will get start getting her just due! She wanted to do it on her own, didn’t want to hear anyone elses suggestions so I guess she wasn’t the best party planner!! I hear the food sucked too!!

Well I am off to finish cleaning up my mess from decorating before hubby gets home from work!

Have a good one!

I am not totaly back on track. This week has brought me some changes.

Hubby and I are now “Empty Nesters” I am not sure how I like it. It has only been a couple days, but right now it just seems to quiet. My youngest just moved out. He is the one who told me he was going to live with us forever. He is only 18 and my baby and I didn’t think he was going to leave this soon.

I am still having problems with dealing with things about work. I wish that I could just forget what has happened and move on, but it just keeps running over and over again in my mind like a bad movie. I know that there is something between the witch and the boss and they are not even realy trying to hide things. It disgusts me! She is married and he has been with someone for a long time. I know what goes around comes around and she will eventually get what she has coming, but it won’t happen soon enough. I know I have gone on too much with this, but if I don’t get it off my chest it just keeps eating away at me. Hubby is sick of hearing it, and you all probably are too. I just need to vent!

Well I hope to finish my Christmas shopping this weekend!

Have a good one!

I am going to check a few blogs!

I finally have my new computer! I love it, at least so far! I love the new monitor too, I have a 19″ flat screen, I had a big bulky 15″ screen before. The tower is smaller and I have lots more room on my desk.

It has been hard, but I have decided to try, letting things go with the crap at work. I don’t have to go in there, unless there is an employee meeting. I feel like I was turning into a mean vengeful person. I am not  normally like that. I am just so hurt that this could happen. My friends no better than to believe what she is doing and they are the ones that matter, not the ones follwing her little whims. It still bothers me that the boss is allowing it. I believe that what goes around comes around and that she will eventually get her just due. It may not be today or tomorrow, but people who do the things she has done eventually get caught up in there one messes! I am doing this because of my husband. He has to work with her and her little cliche every day. It was almost like I lowering myself to her standards when I was so obessessed with getting back at her. I have friends there that know me and know what has truly happened. The Company Christmas Party is just the beginging of what is going to come back to bite her in the butt! The only employees now going are her little cliche a few others and the boss!  The rest of the employees decided not to go!

I have to get totally back on track and hopefully still get to the 100 lb. loss by Christmas!

Have a good one!