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I am really having a very hard time staying on track after the holidays. I have taken off 4 of the pounds I put on over the holidays. This past week, I reamained the same. At least I did not gain.

Things at work going okay! I had to go in last Friday for a mandatory meeting. The witch kept smiling at me, and it crossed my mind to just reach over there and smack that smile off her face, but don’ t worry I didn’t do it! I had a talk with the other committee member (the one that has the position I resigned from and then reran for). Well any ways she was unaware of my issues. Of course she would be! We went up in the office to have a private talk. This office is the one the committee has always been able to use for their meetings. Well about 10 minutes into the talk we are told we have to get out of the office as there are private papers in there…….well duh……..it is an office and there are always private papers there……..but I think they just didn’t want us to be able to talk. I invited her to come to my house on Sunday to continue our talk. She came over with her b/f who is also a driver for the company! What I figured would happen did happen to her. She got stabbed in the back also by the witch! She went to the boss and he told her he didn’t think it was quite like that, that it was just her imagination!! Gee I think I have heard that one before! Well she told me she would see what she could do, but doubted it would be anything, because nobody was going to listen. Well hubby tells me she is going to resign too, because she is tired of it all.  Maybe this will make someone realize what the heck is going on, but I doubt it too!!

I have a question for my buddies, that is not diet related. For those of you with grown kids, how do you learn to back off things that you see hurting your kids. I have not learned how to do this yet! My middle son (almost 24)has decided to go back with a girl I totally despise she has such bad morals and values that it is literally making me sick to think of him being with her. My youngest son has a g/f who I am slowly finding out is about the same way. She is continuously doing things to hurt him (liking breaking up with him for another guy) and they are right back together the next day!  He is so hurt every time this happens and it is breaking my heart! As a mother you hurt when your kids hurt, but yet you know at some point you need to butt out! Help, I feel so helpless at this point!

I hope everyone is having a great week!

I am still on track, and I feel great!

Well now it is an official blow off by the 2nd committee member! My husband asked her today if she had my phone number so she could call me she looked at him and said NOPE and walked away! I know what the problem is ……..I did my homework and I know what was done was wrong and I have the proof and nobody wants to own up to it! There is one more committee member, the newest one, the one that took my position. I am going to try talking to her. I think she knows what happened (she is friendly with the b#@*h), but I will give her the benefit of the doubt and talk to her about my issues! If I am blown off again, I guess it is back to the boss! I don’t care to be back on that committee, right now it is the principle of the whole thing!

I haven’t mentioned hubby’s diet lately because he is just doing his own thing and I don’t think he is really trying, so I just keep my mouth shut. He keeps talking about walking with me (when the weather is nice) and excercising together (hasn’t happened yet)! I am doing my own thing and I am back on track and losing again and I am going to continue to do my own thing!

Have a good one!

I am blogging, and I can’t believe it………

I am on track and things are going great in that department.

I have had a stressed filled past two weeks. Every day I have to tell myself how much I love my job and love the kids on my bus….I have cried the blues every day because of the crap at work………..My boss is an A$$! He won’t handle the situation and my issues and concerns! I am suppose to take it up with the committe, and that is what my concerns and issues are about! He called me last Thursday and told me that the driver with racist remark that I reported got a verbal warning and that the next time he will get a write up! I said good it is about time.  We are also going to have a speaker come in and do a talk on workplace harrasment and hostile work environments. I say good it is about time. Then he tells me I have to talk with the committee about my issues and then they will bring it to him. Well I got blown off by the member I took my issues to and do you know what the boss tells me about that? Next election vote him off!! Then informs me I have to take it up with another committee member, the one that is the cause of all the problems………she is suppose to call me and has not done it yet. I wanted to go in and talk to her so I could have a witness because I know what a back stabber she is and I was told I was being childish that it could be done by phone……….well she hasn’t made an attempt to call me………YUP another big blow off!!

Why do I feel I set myself up? Well I guess I am just plain old stubborn and I know I am in the right and I am not about to give up! I am going to fight this tooth and nail! I have got my facts and I will prove that this crap has all been a personal vendetta!!

I am doing great with my plan! In the past two weeks I have taken off 4 of the 13 lbs. I put back on between Thanksgiving and the New Year!

I hope everyone is having a great week!!

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I am doing really well staying on plan, this is day 9. It feels great to be back on track.

Today I will not be home inbetween runs. The boss called hubby last night because of some other matters and had  him ask me if I would come in this morning inbetween my runs and do some cleaning. Goes to show not only are most of my co-workers dirty on the inside, but on the outside too. I never use the break room when I go in there(hubby eats his lunch at his desk and I eat there with him), because it is disgusting. I usually have to clean the bathroom before I use it! It is hard to believe there are so many lazy people working for one company. Oh, well it will give me a few more hours.

My driver will not be back until at least Friday. His dad past away. I have had 4 different drivers over the past week, the best one being my hubby, but that has only been two afternoons. It is crazy the one I was counting on was sick, but then I find out part of that was an excuse because she did not like getting up and leaving so early, I get picked up at 6:30. Yesterday afternoon I had my hubby for a driver and he had to go back into base so I went with him. The b$&ch came in, not a word does she say to me, just stood there smiling while I was talking with hubby, boss and the mechanic. She knows better! I am going to keep my mouth shut until she opens hers.

Well I am off to read a few blogs before I leave this morning!

I hope everyone is having a great week!

I was hoping to see a better loss this week. I lost 1.4 lbs. I am glad that I lost something it is better than a gain. I feel better and I will keep at it and not let emotions control me anymore.

I have had 2 grandkids this weekend so I have been busy and stayed on track. I am lucky my grandkids are pretty healthy eaters and not use to wanting a lot of junk. Sure they get some, but don’t ask for it like I see a lot of kids do. They are happy with yogurts and fruit instead of candy, and sugar free kool-aid instead of sodas.

Well off to finish up my laundry before going to my son’s for dinner this afternoon. I am okay with that because I know I can still stay on plan.

Have a great day buddies!

Today I am going to go into base so I can have lunch with my husband. My stomach is in knots. I have not been in there in probably 2 months. I am tired of never going in and going out to lunch with my hubby. I am tired of the people that make me feel like I don’t belong in there. I have worked there for 3 years and the one that causes me the most problems has worked there since September. I am tired of other people ruling my life. This is my life and I will not let other people rule it! Hubby wants me to be on my best behaviour. I told him I will, but if anything is said to me out of line, I will defend myself any way I can! I am tired of the lying conviving person who has gotten away with treating me and a few other people like shit! I have tried the forget it and move on and I just can’t do it! I know if I was the type of person that could do that I would probably be better off, but I am tired of people who shit on people all the time and walk away smelling like a rose! I think what bothers me the most is when she was a new employee I befriended her only to find out later what she is really like and that she uses people and pretends to be their friends only to get what she wants. I didn’t realize these intentions until it all came back and bit me in the ass!

I have been back on track for 4 days and feeling great. I have my lunch with hubby already planned out so I don’t mess up!

This weekend we are having our 8 year old grandson Cody. This doesn’t happen often he is usually a homebody! This will be a real treat this weekend for us!

Well I hope that everyone is having a great day!

I have made it through 3 days being back on track. I feel so much better. I am hoping before I know it I take off the lbs. I put on over the Holidays. Never again will I let myself slide so much. We all have times we fall off the wagon, but I will never stay off track as long as I did the last time. I am tired of making excuses and not achieving my goals.

Yesterday was a long day at work. I had to get up at 3 to go in with hubby at 5 to work with a driver not familiar with my run. It made for a long day and I was asleep last night before 8. I feel so much better today, in part to the getting some sleep and in part to being back on track.

I hope you all have a great day! 

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My regular driver had to go to Florida because his 92 year old father is in the hospital. I get another driver, one I use to work  with before this morning. I knew she wasn’t feeling well, but had no idea how sick she was. Ends up she has really sick and has the rest of the week off……so I had my hubby for a driver this afternoon what a treat. Now, in the moring I am probably having some driver from another base that I don’t know. I have had bad experiences with drivers like this. Some drivers treat monitors like second class citizens. I told hubby if this happens I am quitting and they will be screwed because nobody else knows the run but me. I have to give directions and do my job watching the kids at the same time. With the rural area for my run this is not the easiest thing to do. I hope that I don’t get a different driver every day my driver is gone. I also have to go into base in the morning with my hubby at like 5:15 because of course this driver doesn’t know where I  live. I usually get picked up at home at 6:30. I told hubby and I am putting the 5:15 down on my time sheet because if it weren’t for the fact I have to go in that early I would be at home doing my own thing until I get picked up!

Well today was a good eating plan day, and I got some excercise in. I used my Walk Away the Pounds video. Boy did I know I have been slacking off in the excercise department. I only did a 1/2 mile. I figure it is better than nothing and I will work my way back up to the mile and then I can start the 2 mile and then the 3 mile. I am not going to make excuses anymore. I also will start using my Richard Simmons videos and alternate so I don’t get bored!

I hope everyone is having an awesome day!

It frustrates me so bad when I want to blog and can’t. It always seems like when I feel like a real need to blog that it happens. Today I just feel a big need to vent.

I am so pissed at my hubby it is a good thing he is not here right now. I feel like I could rip his head off.  He was promised either a raise or insurance after the first of the year. I heard the big boss was going to be into the office today so I told him why don’t you find out what is going on with this and he informed me it was his business! I was like WHOOA there it is my business too! For those of you that don’t know hubby and I work for the same company (big mistake)! I wanted to come in today and talk with the boss, but decided for tomorrow since the big boss was coming in. Well anyways of course hubby doesn’t want me to. You see I have a big mouth! I have some unresolved issues that I want to talk with the boss about. I feel I need to resolve these issues in order to move on for the new year! Hubby is like it is over it is done and just move on. I can’t, I feel the boss let me down, and I need to vent and let him know I am not tolerating the shitty treatment anymore! I have let this eat away at me and I brought it into the new year and unless I get it all out in the open it is going to keep dragging me down! I have tried so hard to let it go. I want to let it go, but it just keeps hanging around and making me feel like shit! I deserve better treatment than I have had in the past and I am going to confront these issues one last time. I feel if I do it I can finally let it go! I know I can only change me, but I feel the need to put the jerks I work with on notice that I am not going to tolerate the bullshit no more.

I guess I am off to have lunch before I go back to work. I will stay on track and not let shit get me down. I am doing this for me and for me alone and I deserve it! I will not let my feelings control my eating! I am proud of how far I have come and I will continue.

Onto better things. My grandchildrens BD party last night was great! My grandson was so happy with the childrens digital camera we got him. My grandaughter was happy with the Barbie learning toy we got her it looks like a little lap top. I love seeing my granchildren so happy!

Have a good one!

I was doing so great, then the Holidays came. I fell off track really bad. I promised myself I would get right back on track the first of the year. Then it was as soon as I went back to work after having almost 2 weeks off. Now here it is the 6th of January and I have not made it through a whole day without falling off the wagon! Today is a big BD party for my oldest grandchildren. Cody turned 8 on the first and  his sister Natasha turned 5. I have told myself enough is enough. I am going to do this, tomorrow is a brand new day! I am tirerd of beating myself up like I have for the past week! I know that I can do it and I will do it. I am going to start using the food journal again and the excercise journal. I did so well before using the food journal.

I hope everyone is having a great weekend!