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It frustrates me so bad when I want to blog and can’t. It always seems like when I feel like a real need to blog that it happens. Today I just feel a big need to vent.

I am so pissed at my hubby it is a good thing he is not here right now. I feel like I could rip his head off.  He was promised either a raise or insurance after the first of the year. I heard the big boss was going to be into the office today so I told him why don’t you find out what is going on with this and he informed me it was his business! I was like WHOOA there it is my business too! For those of you that don’t know hubby and I work for the same company (big mistake)! I wanted to come in today and talk with the boss, but decided for tomorrow since the big boss was coming in. Well anyways of course hubby doesn’t want me to. You see I have a big mouth! I have some unresolved issues that I want to talk with the boss about. I feel I need to resolve these issues in order to move on for the new year! Hubby is like it is over it is done and just move on. I can’t, I feel the boss let me down, and I need to vent and let him know I am not tolerating the shitty treatment anymore! I have let this eat away at me and I brought it into the new year and unless I get it all out in the open it is going to keep dragging me down! I have tried so hard to let it go. I want to let it go, but it just keeps hanging around and making me feel like shit! I deserve better treatment than I have had in the past and I am going to confront these issues one last time. I feel if I do it I can finally let it go! I know I can only change me, but I feel the need to put the jerks I work with on notice that I am not going to tolerate the bullshit no more.

I guess I am off to have lunch before I go back to work. I will stay on track and not let shit get me down. I am doing this for me and for me alone and I deserve it! I will not let my feelings control my eating! I am proud of how far I have come and I will continue.

Onto better things. My grandchildrens BD party last night was great! My grandson was so happy with the childrens digital camera we got him. My grandaughter was happy with the Barbie learning toy we got her it looks like a little lap top. I love seeing my granchildren so happy!

Have a good one!