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Grrrrrr first off I have been having internet issues. I have dial up the only thing I can get in the boonies where I live. It now seems to be working fine, but I was getting booted after only being online like 5 minutes.

Then my husband is driving me nuts. He is under a lot of stress when the company we worked for was bought out by a bigger company. He now has a lot of new job duties and there are a lot of changes with more to come. He has more responsibilities. He is a little grumpy at times, and I try not to take it personal but it is hard. His eating habits are driving me nuts and it makes it hard for me to stick to plan while watching him eat cookies and donuts, etc. Last night I needed to stop at Wal-Mart and get a loaf of reduced calorie bread for me and of course you have to go past the baker department and he buys to packages of donuts. He ate a half a pkg. himself last night. I had popcorn for my snack. Well today I stuck the rest of the donuts in his lunch. He can eat them all or share them I don’t care, at least I got them out of my house!

This coming weekend I will be going nuts. I promised to take my 2 year old grandaughter, because I don’t have her much. Well the mother of my 3 yr.old grandaughter calls me Monday and asks me to take her this weekend. I can’t say “No” because it makes me feel like I spend all my time with the others and I don’t get her enough (I never got to see the 3 year old until she was almost 2)! I have only had her once and she was a handful.

I am really having trouble finding Me Time!

I hope you are all having a great week!

(((HUGS)))

I think the new profile picture my son took of me today looks like a mug shot. I will have him take another one later.

I have also changed my before and after pictures. The before was taken at my son Justin’s wedding. I weighed 310 lbs. I knew I was fat, but when I saw those pictures I just wanted to die! This picture is one that sent my on my weight loss journey!

My after picture shows the difference that losing 87 lbs. has made!

I love the warm weather is finally here. Now comes the hard part for me……Cook Outs! We had one at my brothers last night and I did good. I took a turkey burger for myself. Now tonight a cook out with my son Justin and his family……..I will be good……….I will be good……….I will be good! Hubby had me bake a cake……….I will be good…………I will be good……..

Have a great weekend!

((((HUGS)))))

 is going okay. I have not accomplished every thing I had planned on. I have had my 5 year old granddaughter almost continuously since Friday night. I enjoy having her, but need to get to the things done that I had planned on doing.

It is  harder for me to stick to my plan when I am off work. It is to easy to walk out in the kitchen and get a snack. I have done okay, but it has really been a struggle this week.

I am still journaling my food every day, and I will continue with it. I find it is the only way I can hold my self accountable.

Well I am going to go check on some of my buddies blogs.

I hope you are all having a great week!

(((HUGS)))

I went to B.J.’s with my sister-in-law today and I stocked up on my snack packs. Oh they were such a good deal. They are so easy to throw in my purse when I go to work I can already have a snack with me so I am not so tempted to buy something at the gas station when we stop for our potty break after we drop the kids off. I got a huge box of 100 calorie granola bars too! I got a huge bag of salad mix too, for like 2 dollars that costs me almost 4 dollars at Wal-Mart. I am so pshyched I am going to join myself. It costs 45 dollars to join for the year, but it is so worth it. They have a gas station too. It isn’t any further for me to go there to shop either.

I had my 5 year old grandaughter for the weekend and took her home this morning. She calls me this afternoon and says NaNa can I come back to your house, of course I can’t say no. PaPa is picking her up after work. So much for my Spring Cleaning on my Spring Break…….LOL…….I will probably take her back on Wednesday and then bust my butt the rest of the week.

I hope all of my buddies are having a great week!

I feel like everything in my life is spinning out of control right now. Working on ME seems like the only thing I can control in my life right now!

This has not been a good week for me emotionally. Ever since the new company (where hubby and I both work) took over hubby has been under a lot more pressure. He has a lot of new responsibilities. He is coming home with a lot more on his mind than he use too. He has started to become more critical of everything I do or don’t do. Take last night for example. He came home and one of the first things he said to me was he was tired of things not getting done around here the way they use too! Well you know what I am not the only person that lives here. If he wants things done he should help. We also have the laziest 19 year old son you would ever want to meet. I am tired of coming home inbetween my runs and doing everything here. I am tired of making dinner everynight and cleaning up afterwards while those 2 sit around watching tv or playing on the computer. I am tired of always being so tired I go to bed at 8 O’ clock most nights. I am tired of my husband trying to sabatoge my weight loss efforts. Last night we had something to do before dinner and hubby said why don’t we stop and get some take out and I said No I will just go home and get dinner, but you can get yourself take out if you want. He was like No you will never do anything with me anymore. I do things with him, but he just doesn’t get it, and I don’t think he ever will. The other night I was examing myself and the flab I have that has become a loose and worrying it will never tighten up. What does hubby say?? ” I love your cellulite “!! I burst into tears! Can you believe he didn’t realize this was the wrong thing to say!

I am going to do this, despite everything else I have going on. It hurts that he is just not getting it. Yes, I want to look better it is only natural, but I want to be healthier too! I want to be able to keep up with my grandkids and enjoy life. I want to feel better about myself and gain more self confidence!

I am glad I have buddy slim and all of my buddies here that give me that support and motivation I need!

I am and I will do this no matter what!

I hope everyone is having a great week!

My dad passed away almost 10 years ago. Today is my dads Birthday he would be 84 years old today. I miss him a lot. My dad was my best friend. We talked almost every day. He gave me a lot of advice, most of which I never took….LOL……but he gave it to me anyways! My dad not got to see my grandchildren something I wish he could have. He would have loved them all, but I know Natasha would have been his favorite, with the mouth she has on her. Not one day goes by when there is not something I think about I would love to share with my dad. My weight loss being one. I know my dad would be so proud of me.

I am doing so much better now that I am journaling my food again. It makes a big difference knowing what I am eating and keeping myself in control. Just having a little trouble finding ME time, hubby and son still just don’t get it!

I hope everyone is having an awesome week!

(((HUGS)))