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I feel like everything in my life is spinning out of control right now. Working on ME seems like the only thing I can control in my life right now!

This has not been a good week for me emotionally. Ever since the new company (where hubby and I both work) took over hubby has been under a lot more pressure. He has a lot of new responsibilities. He is coming home with a lot more on his mind than he use too. He has started to become more critical of everything I do or don’t do. Take last night for example. He came home and one of the first things he said to me was he was tired of things not getting done around here the way they use too! Well you know what I am not the only person that lives here. If he wants things done he should help. We also have the laziest 19 year old son you would ever want to meet. I am tired of coming home inbetween my runs and doing everything here. I am tired of making dinner everynight and cleaning up afterwards while those 2 sit around watching tv or playing on the computer. I am tired of always being so tired I go to bed at 8 O’ clock most nights. I am tired of my husband trying to sabatoge my weight loss efforts. Last night we had something to do before dinner and hubby said why don’t we stop and get some take out and I said No I will just go home and get dinner, but you can get yourself take out if you want. He was like No you will never do anything with me anymore. I do things with him, but he just doesn’t get it, and I don’t think he ever will. The other night I was examing myself and the flab I have that has become a loose and worrying it will never tighten up. What does hubby say?? ” I love your cellulite “!! I burst into tears! Can you believe he didn’t realize this was the wrong thing to say!

I am going to do this, despite everything else I have going on. It hurts that he is just not getting it. Yes, I want to look better it is only natural, but I want to be healthier too! I want to be able to keep up with my grandkids and enjoy life. I want to feel better about myself and gain more self confidence!

I am glad I have buddy slim and all of my buddies here that give me that support and motivation I need!

I am and I will do this no matter what!

I hope everyone is having a great week!