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No, I didn’t do it, but I wanted too! I am so sick of the company I work for. It is hard to because hubby works for the same company only he is management! I am just a pee on bus monitor! They had a big get together with the new company that bought out our company today! Get this one, they uninvited the monitors! OH, Yea, was I pissed! Yea, had to save some money I guess, and it sure isn’t for raises! They had lunch and they learned about the new GPS system for the vehicles and played games had prizes like gift certificates! They wonder why I get upset with crap in that place……hmmmmmmmm! If it weren’t for us bus monitors the drivers job would be harder! I would love to see how the drivers would handle driving while attending the needs of special needs preschoolers! I should be happy though hubby brought me home a free pen! Yippee!! Boy do I feel better getting this off my chest! I stuck to plan today and what I really wanted to say was screw it! Grrrrrr!

I hope everyone is having a great week!

Big HUGS!

I have to go to work in a half hour, then I am home for about 3 hours then back to work at 12:30. Hubby is picking me up after my last drop off which is an hour away from home to save time. We have to make a trip tonight that is a 3 hour drive from home. My middle son did something stupid last week. He was driving without a licence and did a left turn in the wrong lane. He then lied about his identity for some stupid reason! So he has been in jail in this town 3 hours away! He is 24 years old yet continues to do stupid things! Court is tonight so hubby and I will be a making a 6 hour trip. We were both taking tomorrow off work, but now hubby can’t because he has a morning meeting! I think I may stay home tomorrow, but haven’t decided yet, because I hate losing the pay for the day!

I am doing okay sticking on plan even with all the stress my kids cause me! I thought when they grew up I wouldn’t have all this stress, boy was I ever wrong!

I am shooting for at least a 2 lb. loss this week! That will put me at my next mini goal and a 100 lb. loss!

I am also doing the Thanksgiving Walking Challenge! My ticker is moving a little slower than I wanted, but I know I can catch up!

I hope you are all having an amazing week!

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my hubby doesn’t eat very healthy. He won’t give healthy a chance. He is proud of me and he tells me this often. He tells me he wants to start eating healthier all the time, but it just doesn’t happen. If I say it is healthy forget it, he is afraid it is going to taste bad. He doesn’t eat veggies except for corn and potatoes. He thinks potatoe chips are a vegetable, okay! He eats very little fruits, he loves his Little Debbies too much. For the most part I eat turkey burgers when he has a hamburger, but he won’t give one a chance. So tonight he wants spaggetti and meatballs. He is working and I am home alone, so I made meatballs with ground turkey. I am feeding this to him tonight for dinner. I am not telling him what I did not even if he likes it. Shhhhhhhhh! I figured out the calories per meat ball and it is only 55 cal. each. not to bad they are good size I made 16 out of the lb. If I can pull this one off maybe I can start pulling some other tricks out of my sleeve. Does any one else have to be sneaky for picky unhealthy eaters? If you do, any ideas would be wonderful.

I hope you are all having an amazing day!

Big HUGS!

It seems every time I get this close I mess up! I don’t know what it is. I am now at a 98 lb loss once again. I hope to lose those 2 pesky pounds by my next weigh in on Saturday! I am totally back on track with eating right, journaling my food and excercising. I have slacked off so much on the excercise I have to build myself back up on that! I did 15 minutes which was on mile on the Walk Away the Pounds video yesterday! I was beat, I was totally whooped! I am off to do some again this morning and then hopefully again later today!

I hope you all have a great week!

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Yup, I told you I work with a bunch of idiots. The other day,  the mechanic at work came up to my hubby and told him some of his words of wisdom. I am saying that sarcastically! He told my husband that in his opinion, as if anyone wants or needs his opinion! Anyways in his opinion when a woman starts losing weight and goes and gets a totally new hairstyle she is having an affair! My hubby, oh yes, I love that man, told him “Bette Jo is losing weight because she wants to be healthier, she does not want to develop all of the health issues the rest of her family did! Doesn’t she look great!”?  I guess this shut his mouth! This is coming out of the mouth of a man who left his S.O. of about 10 years for a married woman at work! This is the crap I have to encounter from my place of work! Before this would have upset me terribly, but I have to take into consideration the person who is saying it!

It feels so good to be back on track! I am back to food journaling, but have switched to the tried and true pen and paper! This food journal here is just a pain in my butt! It never works right for me. I can save a food to my list and when I go to bring it back up to enter, it shows everything 0 for calories and nutrition so then I have to go do a food search to get it all over again.

This week was a two lb. Loss. I need to lose 2 more lbs to reach my mini goal and have a 100 lb. Loss.

I hope you all have a great day!

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It is time I stopped with the self-sabotage! I am the queen of excuses for what I do to myself every day! I have proven I can do it! I think I get so far and maybe I am afraid of the changes.

I can sit around and whine and moan or I can get my butt in gear and do this! I can count my blessings for what I have or I can whine about what I don’t have!

I can bitch about hubby working all the time or I can be thankful that I have a husband  I can see every day! He works two jobs in order to take care of me and I can work less than 30 hours a week!

I can complain about him eating junk in front of me and tempting me or I can accept the fact that I can’t change him; he needs to want to change himself. He needs to want to change his eating habits for him not for me!

I can moan about how tired I am and how my body hurts or I can do something about it!

I can whine about how flabby and disgusting my body looks or I can exercise and tighten it up!

I can cry all I want about the way some people at work treat me and don’t like me or I can accept the fact that some people are just trouble makers no matter what and it doesn’t matter and that I have friends who love me and accept me for me!

I can stop my imagination that my hubby’s is going to leave me for someone else. He loves me and he tells me this every day. He tells me he is proud of what I have accomplished and me and he tells me how nice I look every day! Just because our place of work is a Peyton Place and there are things like that going on in there doesn’t mean that my husband is weak and part of it! We have been married almost 30 years, and he has loved me through it all he isn’t going to start cheating on me just because this is happening all around him at work!

I can’t help what my grown kids choose to do or not to do! I can stop blaming myself for what I did wrong. They are old enough to know right from wrong and I know in my heart I raised them with good morals and if they want to continue on a road to self-destruction, I can’t stop them, but just let them know I love them and I am here for them.

I have to let go of the hurt my sister has been causing me, because she doesn’t think I go to see my mom enough. I go to see my mom as often as I can. I love my mom and she knows it and I know my mom loves me. My sister is a very unhappy person and she wants everyone around her to be as miserable as she is and I refuse to fall in to her trap any longer.

These past few weeks I have been having one long big Pity Party and it is going to stop today! I am no longer going to participate in this self-sabotage I have been doing!

I am so thankful for all of you and the support, motivation and inspiration you have given me! I am not going to self-destruct any more! I am going to get up dust myself off and start anew!

TODAY, I am totally back on track with diet and exercise!

Love ya all!

Big HUGS!