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and don’t know what to do with them!

I had my doctors appointment the other day. I talked with her about some of the issues I have going on. She put me on medication for depression. I am not one to take drugs, but I know what I have been feeling is not normal so I will try it and see how it goes.

The one thing that I have still loved is my job. I don’t like going into our base, because of issues with some co-workers, but my job itself I have always loved. For those of you who don’t know I am a bus monitor for preschoolers with disabilities. I have four beautiful children who are like additional grandchildren to me. I get along well with there parents and have great communication with them. I have gotten along well with my driver since we began working together over 1 and 1/2 years ago. Well that is until recently. He has always been very nice and he is a very intelligent 65 year old man. We talk about many interesting subjects and I have alwys enjoyed his company. Recently he has made comments that have really hurt my feelings. For example last week, he explained to me my duties as a bus monitor. I was thinking, Duh, I have been doing this job for almost 4 years, I think I know how to do my job. I bit my tongue and didn’t say a word. I have one little girl on the run who has downsyndrome. She is a doll. This is her 3 rd school year and I have been her monitor since she began and before he was my driver. She takes her shoes off almost every day. He complains to the teachers, and tells me not to put them on before they come out so that they have to wait for her, and maybe then they will do something about it. He makes such big deals out of everything now! Then yesterday, I really had to bite my tongue. We were getting another child added and I was given the address by the dispatcher (who happens to be my husband), so I went on yahoo maps and printed out the map from the school to this childs home, to the next child we already had. I also printed out the written directions but made sure there was a map, because I know he likes maps not the written directions which I prefer. We were suppose to take this child home from school in the afternoon. When my driver picked me up, I told him I did a map for  him. He pulled over to look at it and told me THIS IS WORTHLESS! I felt like just getting out and walking back home, but I bit my tongue and looked out my window and let the tears flow, I did not want him to see how much he hurt my feelings! When we got to the school, he went up to talk to the driver who had been transporting this child before we got him. He told the other driver an monitor that my husbands directions were GARBAGE and his wifes was from MARS! Well we were at the right spot, but he didn’t think so, so we went and took the other kids home and took this child back and it was the house I thought it was! Long story, and I don’t want to go to work today! If he treats me like shit today, I am calling in sick for the afternoon! I don’t need this along with all the rest of my issues!

Yesterday I tried so hard to stick to my eating, but I went over by 50 calories, but don’t think that is to bad considering my day!

I hope you are all having a great week!

Big HUGS!