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I am going to do it this year. I am going to reach my goal. When I started here at Buddy Slim 2 1/2 years ago I was so sure I would reach my goal by now, but I haven’t but I have achieved so much. I have met a lot of wonderful people who have given me motivation, support and inspiration. I know I would not have made it as far as I have without the support I recieve here. I know my hubby and my son’s and the rest of my family are proud of me, but they just don’t get it because they are not going through it.

Hubby and I are off to our oldest son’s tonight for a little party. we are not staying to late the weather here doesn’t look to good. I am going to eat what I want tonight and weigh in tomorrow and start again. I have been slacking off and making excuses since the middle of November when I got pulled out of work and was sitting home waiting for my surgery. After my surgery it was still one excuse after another. I am not saying I will not slip again, because I know that I am not perfect, but I will not fall off the wagon for such a long time again.

I hope you all have a Very Happy New Year~

Love ya

Big HUGS!

I don’t know why it is so difficult to get back on track this time. I know I can do it. I see how far I have come and I know I will do it, but I just can’t seem to do it. I can start off my day all gung ho about it and by days end I have yet once again messed up big time.

I am bored out of my mind sitting home and not working. I am depressed about my finances and less money coming in and trying to figure out the bills.

My youngest son’s issues have really gotten me down too. He is 19 and does absolutely nothing with his life. He doesn’t work he quit school. He hangs with the worst people you want too see. He has a g/f that lies and cheats on him and he forgives her every time. I try not to say anything to him about her, because it all comes out wrong.  He hardly ever comes home he stays with this friend or that friend. His g/f broke up with him yesterday because she is tired of his immaturity and jealousy, gee I wonder where that all stems from. He called his dad all depressed and it has gotten me so worried. I don’t know what to do. He is my baby and I want to help him, but I am just at my wits end. He is talking of moving to Virginia, where my youngest sister lives. I know she would probably take him. I know it would probably be good too get him away from here and the scum bags that he hangs with. I hope he decides for sure that is what he wants to do. I think my sister can help get him back on track. He has always been very close to her and I think it just might be a good thing.

I am healing well and I hope when I go to the doctors on the 5th he will let me go back to work sooner than the middle of February that he put on my disability papers. I can’t stand this much more. I feel so lonely all day I need to get out and do something.

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and you have a Happy New Year too!

Big HUGS!

I just wanted to update you all. I got the results I wanted NO CANCER! Yip Yip Hurray!

I am just so tired and drained, I don’t get online much. I haven’t even felt up to wrapping my Christmas gifts and don’t have my Christmas cards done. I am very tired and drained but other than that I am feeling okay. I am a little down after spending the morning paying bills, but I know I will get throught this. Still waiting to hear from disability. I am sure it will go through but they take their sweet time with that.

Let me tell you my hubby is not a very good housewife. I am having a hard time keeping my mouth shut! He thinks it is okay to do the dishes every other day……grrrrrrrrrr I hate dirty dishes! He does laundry as needed and I don’t think he knows how to vacuum.

I am continuing to send good thoughts and prayers to all of my buddies in need!

Oh yeah, wasn’t the Biggest Loser something last night! Didn’t everyone look amazing? I was glad to see Vicki did not win! I was so excited and happy for Michelle! But in my book the biggest loser was Jerry he got so much more than money he got his health back!

I hope you all have a great week!

Love and Big HUGS!

I am home from the hospital now I can recover.

My surgery went well except for the one hour which was changed to 2 hrs and then ended up being 4 hrs. of which I didn’t know of course until it was all done and over with. I ended up with more problems than the doctors anticipated. I had another tumor on my ovaries and lesians on my bowels, preliminary biopsies reveal no cancer, but I will get definate results within the next couple days. The doctors are very optimistic.

Thank you for all of your good thoughts and prayers.

Love and Big HUGS!

Yippeeee! Tonight is the company Christmas Party! I had it all planned what I was going to wear awhile back. I had bought a beautiful pair of black velvet pants to where with a beautiful black velvet blouse I had bought! It looks so great together! I can’t wear the pants…….I know I could if it wasn’t for the medical issue I am having right now so I don’t feel to down about it. I don’t know why I had kept a pair of dressy black slacks I had that were too loose, but I am glad I did. It looks good and I am going to look good!  All I have been mostly wearing has been sweats and that makes me feel down. I like looking good! It makes me feel good!

I am also feeling up because hubby told me the two drivers on the employee committee want me back on the committee. I kind of have mixed feelings on it, because I was tricked off the committee to begin with and then when they had a re-election the one who tricked me off the committe cheated on the election because she did not want me back on the committee because she knew I was on to her! She is gone both from the committee and the company after stealing money from the employee fund! I was kind of treated like a poor sport when this all happened and now they all know I was right and it was not all in my head! I want to be a part of the committe because I know the committee can do good things and I have good ideas I want to share, but I still feel like I wasn’t treated right when all of this went down. I guess if I really want to be a part of trying to do good things with the company I got to suck it up and move on!

Well my surgery is on Wednesday! Although I am not looking forward to surgery I am looking forward to getting it over with and getting my life back on track!

I have so many buddies in need of prayers right now! I want you all to know you are in my thoughts and prayers always!

Much love and the Biggest HUGS ever!

I know better, but I am so full of them right now! I use the excuse of hubby is doing most of the cooking right now and he cant cook too much and he has no idea of healthy cooking! I am bored out of my mind at home and I use that for another excuse……grrrrrrrrrr I know better! I need a big swift kick in my butt!!!!

I feel like such a bum right now too! My stomach is so swollen about all I can wear is my hubby’s sweat pants and my lounge pants! I always feel so much better when I can dress nice even if I am not going any where special…….I like to look good and now I feel like crap……..I can’t wait until I can get this done and over with and on my road to recovery!

I want to come on here more and I come on as often as I feel up too it! It gets uncomfortable sitting here at the computer too long…….I wish I could answer each on of my wonderful buddies, but I can’t stand to sit here too long!

Each on of my buddies holds a special place in my heart!

I hope everyone is having an amazing week!

LOVE YA!

Biggest HUGS ever!