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This past week has been very long for me. My mother-in-law passed away last Thursday. It has been very stressful and so many things to do. Eating on the run and the family get together after the funeral. I gained back 4 lbs. this week. I have been trying since Monday to get back on track, but I just keep screwing up! We live the closest to my father-in-law so my husband is helping him with a lot of things. We spent so much money for things we were totally broke and couldn’t even buy groceries this week. We had food so we won’t starve it is just nothing sounds good, and I think I keep looking for something and I am not finding it!

Then to top things off my middle son borrowed my cell phone on Sunday and he misplaced it. It is in my oldest son’s house somewhere! Probably one of the grandkids carted it off.

Then my lazy youngest son is driving me nuts. I am so tired of his crap I could just scream. He is 19 years old, quit school, won’t work, comes home every once in awhile, but usually just stays with this friend or that. He came home and was very good and respectful during the loss of his grandmother. I was hoping this was a sign of him finally growing up……..wrong! I had a jar full of change, there was probably 20.00 0r 30.00 dollars in it. I had it hid because I don’t trust his friends, that stop by. Well today I was going to roll some change to buy a few groceries and, you got it, it was empty!! I haven’t called him, I am afraid of what I will say. I am pissed off beyond belief, but I think I am actually more hurt that my own son would steal from me! When he went in town yesterday, I gave him my last dollar in my wallet, and he took the soda cans back. I usually don’t give him money his dad does. His dad thinks I am too tough on him and I think he is to easy on him. This is the biggest issue my husband and I have!

I am also feeling down, because I think I must have offended some buddies on here. I don’t know if I did or not, it may just me already feeling down. I am the team captain for FAB 500 lb. challenge. I send messages and boosters and respond on the forums as much as time allows me. I haven’t heard from some of them in quite awhile. I really hope I didn’t say or do something wrong, but if I did, I am sorry. Please if I did offend someone in some way, please let me know!

Sending Big HUGS to all of you!

  I have spent a lot of time reflecting on my weight loss journey the past few days!  When I first joined Buddyslim, I was at my wits end! I had been overweight most of my adult life. I knew I was overweight, but I was still shocked when I saw the pictures from my oldest son’s wedding. When I looked at those pictures of me, I was like who is that fat woman? I was like is that me? That woman was not the person I wanted to be.  The next process for me was to figure out how I was going to lose weight. I had tried so many diets over the years. With most of them I had lost weight, but then gained it all back plus!  I was horrified when I stepped on the scales and saw my weight was 310 pounds. I knew in order for me to lose weight I needed some support. I knew that I was not going to get the support I needed from my family. I Googled, weight loss and support, and I found many weight loss sites, but I decided to join Buddyslim.  At first I decided to just cut back and see how that would work. Then I found a book called the Carb Addicts Diet. I lost weight very well with that for a long time. With the knowledge I was obtaining, as I was on this journey, I realized in order to obtain good health, I needed to eat more nutritionally. I counted calories for a while trying to stay within 1200-1500 calories a day. I then realized I needed to actually measure my food. My perception of a serving was not right. Then I found out that journaling my food was the only way I actually could stick to my plan.  I have always been an emotional eater, and I could use anything for an excuse to over eat! I would eat if I were happy, sad or mad! You name it was an excuse! Although I am no longer the Queen of excuses, I still do it more than I would like. Lately I have found although I am under a lot of stress, I have been managing my emotional eating better. I think it is because while a lot of the things causing me stress are beyond my control eating right is something I can control! Right now I am using the Zig Zag Diet (one of my buddies gave me the information for this one). I journal my food, and most days I journal my thoughts too, this helps me to understand if I slip up why I did it. When I began this journey 2 ½ years ago, I thought I would have reached my goal by now. I am not disappointed that I didn’t. It has been a learning experience for me. I think if I had lost the weight faster I would have just gained it all back, like my past diet days! I have learned this is not a quick fix! This is a lifestyle change. I think I can realistically lose the rest of my weight and reach my goal this year. It is baby steps! Slow and steady wins the race! I am not saying I won’t slip and fall, what I am saying is, if I do I will forgive myself and get up dust myself off and begin again!It is because of the love, support, motivation and inspiration of my buddies that I am still here! It is because I have friends who understand me, and what I am trying to accomplish! We are in this together, and we will succeed! Big HUGS!

No, I didn’t eat them, but my hubby and son and grandaughter did! Oh, it looked so good, but I made myself a turkey burger last night for dinner instead! I thought it was going to bother me a lot more than it did! I even had enough calories left for my f/f chocolate pudding with f/f coolwhip! This is how I usually get my chocolate fixes!

The scales are moving down but a lot slower than last week! I lost an amazing 8 lbs. last week, so I expected this! Slow and steady wins the race! I am in this for the weight loss, but my main goal is a healthier me! I am in this for the long haul! I know that this is a lifestyle change not a quick fix!

I am hoping everyone is having an awesome weekend!

Big HUGS!

This has been a long and stress filled week. So much going on. Some good, some bad and some things I am just not sure about!

I had a great weight loss this week! I lost those 8 lbs. I had put back on with my long fall off track. I am so excited about that! I have started back with my food journal as that is the only way I can really stay on plan!

My stress included my hubby’s colonoscopy. Thank God that turned out fine.

I am still having issues with my youngest son! 19 years old, quit school, won’t work and having g/f trouble all the time. He has a cell phone that we pay for so we can keep in contact, he hardly ever calls and if I call I usually get his voice mail. He then tells me it was dead…..grrrrrr. He keep talking of moving to VA with his Aunt, my youngest sister. I think in a way it would be a good move. I think to get him away from his so called friends and that  girl is what he needs!

Then my middle son and his g/f of about 2 months come over the other night and announce she is pregnant! He is married and not divorced! He has a child from another woman before his marriage. The mother of this child is a fruit loop! She was letting us see our grandaughter and my son was taking on the weekends and then all of a sudden she stopped. She is trying to say my son punishes his daughter when he has her! His punishment consists of time out! Same thing I use when I have her. She is 4 and believe me she is a very active child use to getting her own way! Her mother complains how hard she is to handle but uses no corrective measures what so ever! I am so tired of her crap! We never got to see her for Christmas! This weekend she is allowing us to come see her at her home! I will have to remind myself to keep my trap shut! I will probably bite my tongue so hard it will have a hole in it! My son is doing paper work today for visitation!

All of this stress has played big time in my life! I have done a lot of self talk and haven’t done to bad…….well except yesterday! I went over by about 200 calories, but I journaled it anyways!

I am so glad today is Friday! It is so boring sitting home! I can’t wait until I can go back to work! I can’t wait until I can excercise! At least on the weekends I have hubby and usually one of my grandkids! This weekend we may have my 9 year old grandson, Cody!

I hope you all had a great week and have an even better weekend!

Big HUGS!

It took me awhile, but I am finally back on track. I am journaling what I eat again. I know that is the ony way I can do this. It hasn’t been easy, but I have done it. I can’t wait until I can go back to work. It is hard when I have so much free time. My scales are finally going down again. I owe this in part to becoming the team captain for the 500 lb. Challenge. We are FAB (Fit and Beautiful)!

Money is still tight and will be until I can get back to work and for a time after, but we will get through it we always have. The transmission went on our blazer. $1,000.00 might as well have been a million dollars. Thank God my hubby’s dad loaned us the money to get it fixed.

Hubby is having a colonoscopy tommorrow. A little worried on that, but it is only because he is 50 and a family history of colon cancer. I am sure everything will be fine but please keep him in your prayers.

I hope everyone is having an amazing week!

Biggest HUGS ever!

I am having a tought time getting back on track. I let myself slip for so long. I know what I need to do, but can’t seem to do it. I don’t want to go backwords anymore. I have been making excuses for too long. I was hoping the doctor would let me go back to work. It is so hard sitting home 24/7. I can’t excercise yet and I am so bored I don’t know what to do with myself. Any and all suggestions are welcome!

I need to get motivated. When I get off here I am going to go watch last nights Biggest Loser. I taped it on the DVR I was so tired, I went to bed early. Tired from what I don’t know, I guess it is just my body still trying to heal.

I hope everyone is having an amazing week!

Big HUGS!

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