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Sometimes you need to be hard on yourself, but sometimes you need to take a break to reflect on everything you have going on in your life. Sometimes you need to make yourself #1 priority and other times you need to make others come first! For those of you who don’t know my mother in law passed away on the the 22nd of January. She was only 72 years old. She retired 10 years ago and said she wasn’t going to do anything. That is exactly what she did NOTHING! I don’t want to be like this! It is a sad loss for those she left behind. My father in law is alone after 53 years of marriage. Her children and grandchildren, and so many people will sadly miss her. I have been so off track trying to be there for everyone else. I have used every excuse imaginable. Now it is time for me to get hard on myself again!

I have had so many compliments this past week from people I had not seen in a long time. People asking me for my secret for weight loss! I told them I don’t have a secret! It has been a long struggle to change. I am in this for the long haul for the rest of my life, I eat less, I eat healthier and I excercise!

My middle son’s g/f took some family pictures. I have always hated having my picture taken. I still see myself the way I was. She took one of my me with my 3 sister in laws. I was shocked when I saw it! I was the 2nd smallest one in the picture (my skinny sister in law Nora is the smallest)! I use to be the biggest! I was actually happy with the picture! My daughter in law got out a box of pictures and her and my middle sons g/f  where going through them. I have only known my my son’s g/f since Christmas time, so she didn’t know me before I lost weight. She didn’t believe old pics of me were really me! LOL……..gotta love that girl!

Tomorrow is ME time! I am off work for a long weekend! Tomorrow I am sitting down, and making me an exercise schedule I can do and I am going to work on my eating plan too! If I want to be 149 in 2009, I need to get my butt in gear and get hard on myself once again!

Hope you are all having a great weekend!

Biggest HUGS Ever!