I need my buddies right now…
Last night my older sister Carol called me. My mom is not doing well. She has been a nursing care facility for awhile now. She had a stroke last year, and could no longer be cared for at home. Her kidneys are failing. She has a week heart and lungs and they don’t think dialasis is an option because of these issues. I know I won’t have my mother much longer. I lost my dad 10 years ago and thought that was the end of my world. Now it is my mother. My mother in law passed away three weeks ago. I have let my emotions rule my world. I have not done very well getting back on track. I know what I have to do, but don’t seem to be able to do it. I am afraid of a backslide to my old world. I am eating all the wrong foods at all the wrong times. I am not sleeping well and I get up in the middle of the night and come out to the living room and turn on the tv so as not to wake my hubby. I find myself eating every thing and anything. I am an emotional wreck right now.
When I went shopping last night. I got hubby to buy me a new blender for Valentines Day. I bought some slimfast powder and some bananas and strawberries. I am going to try to do slimfast for a couple weeks to try to jumpstart myself again. I know I am not going to do it for long, but know I can for a couple of weeks and hopefully that is long enough to get myself back on track.
My puppy (Marley) is doing well.
I am off work this coming week and I have to get myself back on track with excerise and eating. I have to stop letting my emotions rule my world. I need my buddies more than ever right now. I know that I would never have come this far without you. You have offered me support, inspiration and motivation. You have kicked my butt and picked me up when I have fallen. You have been there offering me support through all of my struggles!
Thank you all for being my rock!
Big HUGS!
Oh hun, I am so sorry you have to go thru this right now. If there is anything we can do for you to make you feel better, let us know.
You are so right, you can not let your emotions rule. You can do this girl! Believe me, you are so much stronger then you think you are! You don’t have to do it alone, we are here with you every step of the way! Come on girl! Let’s do it together! ((HUGS))
I’m so sorry Bette Jo, you have been through a lot lately. Please just know that we all care about you and you are in our thoughts and prayers.
I know what you mean about letting your emotions control you. Lately when I have been struggling with anything personal I look to find the things that I can control since it feels like I am so out of control. And one of those things that I cling to that I can control is what I eat or exercise. I force myself to keep that a part of my routine and it does wonders for my emotional sanity.
Please let me know if there is anything that I can do to help you.
Well I had my slimfast shake with a banana added. It was good and tasted like a milkshake to me. I put it in a freezer mug.
I am off to see my mom in a little bit. I am going to stop and get her some flowers on my way up!
I am going to try really hard not to let my emotions get the best of me. I will take one day at a time!
Big HUGS
((((((((Bette Jo))))))))
These are such big emotional triggers. It is so hard to not let it get to you. Just try and remember why you are doing this and the health reasons. Could you try something to help you sleep. I use Simply Sleep (by Tylenol). It does seem to help me stay asleep and not toss and turn thru the night.
Glad you enjoyed the slimfast. Glad you are not planning in doing it long term but I totally get why youre doing it and I hope it works.
Will be in prayer for your Mom , you and family.
BIG hugs!!!
I am sorry to hear about your Mom. Can understand why you are having a difficult time…I see Debbie mentioned “simply sleep” to help you rest..when I was working in the hospital Dr’s would often prescribe benadryl-25mg dose as a safe sleep aid. Just a thought.
Take care, will pray for your Mom and you.
*your slimfast shake sounds good with the added fruit-might try that myself!
Aww we love you sweetie! I can’t imagine how you must be feeling right now watching your mom fight for her life. Take comfort in knowing how much you love her and that you are a good daughter. The hardest thing when we are down is to not eat…I know I’m living that right now every second of everyday…with stress eating…I have just in the last two days started writting in a journal instead of binging and it helps so much to write my emotions down and it keep me from eating. Try that when you get up in the middle of the night write down what you are feeling instead of eating it might help you fall back asleep..there is something very relaxing about writting.
I will keep you in my prayers!
Girl,
so sorry to hear about your mom. Our prayers are with her & you, the rest of your family as well.
I use the slimfast for days I dont want to eat, one thing about it..they are yummy! I just want to say be patient with yourself girl. I know how stressful things like this can be-do what you can, minute by minute.
Remember girl, walking and walking fast to help deal with stress. It wont take it away of course, but just anything you know.
I have a feeling your the one that tries to take care of things–you just dont leave yourself out of the process ok. You deserve to be looked after too.
Hugs…much love, debbie
So sorry to hear about your mom. You have been through a LOT recently. Just keep going, just deal with today.
Sorry to hear about your mom…going to send you a message on some thoughts I have.
Take care of yourself one day at a time…
Ann Marie
Im sorry to hear about your mum hun.
I just wanted to send some love and hugs your way.
Ill be thinking of you.
Be gentle on yourself hun
x