What am I afraid of?
It seems every time I get close to Onederand I sabatoge myself. I have been up and down the same pounds for so long now! I have taken too many detours on this journey! I am ready to stick to the right path and finish this journey! I turned 49 years old this month. I am going to finish this journey before I turn 50! I know I can do it! I know what I can accomplish, so why do I keep falling back into my old ways? I am an emotional eater that needs to do something else when I want to fall backwards to my old ways!
I have so many wonderful buddies and have had so much support, insiration and motivation! Instead of whining and eating when I am having a bad day, I will come on here and spend some time with my buddies!
I have decided to give the food journal on here another try too! I know I need to journal my food, and if I use the one on here, I can be here more too!!
I have made it my goal this week to come on here every day!
I hope everyone is having a great week!!
Big HUGS!!
Hey girlie, do you log your emotions when you use a food journal? You said you feel like you’re sabotaging yourself from breaking that 200lb mark. You’ve come so far… you’ve lost over 100lbs!! I mean, that’s an amazing accommplishment. Maybe, there are some thoughts about yourself, or your body image, that may be holding you back. The only way you’ll figure this out is by writing down your thoughts and feelings when you eat. Its a great way of recognising patterns, especially when it comes to emotional eating. I know, because it worked for me.
You are here and blogging again so I say that is a success right there! You can do this, I know you can because look at what you have already done!
It took a long hard talk with myself to stop the emotional eating but I did conquer it. Now when I am feeling alone or desperate to make something stop hurting me, I go exercise. I get angry and yell and scream while I’m doing it but I dont eat!! Good luck!!
Hey, having you show up more often would definitely brighten my day!
You know, I kind of gave up on the why do I do this and that–basically, I love bad foods and any excuse will do lol. Its been my friend for over 20 years. So, I just do my best to stay on track because falling off the wagon–its damn hard to climb back up there with all the emotional guilt, and stress its not worth it.
I know that you have made it so far girl–you really and truely set your mind up to doing this and there will be no stopping you! I would race ya but i’m so far from onederland! lol Come on girl, you can do it–i’m getting excited for you–think of it…ONEDERLAND!!!
I do the same everytime I get close to Onderland…dont know why either. You are doing the right thing tho.
I use Spark People because I like the food journal much better than the one here…but for anything else…I LOVE BS!
You can do this!
I think the site doesn’t like me today…keeps steeling my comments
Okay thanks to copy&paste here it comes again 
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((((BETTE JO)))) Onederland is right around the corner
So close…. you can do this 
You came so far you can go even further. Coming here everyday will help you and you know that the food journal will 
Stay strong hun….think ONEDERLAND…ONEDERLAND…ONEDERLAND….
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Bette Jo, you already know that you and i are a lot alike. I have been staying the same weight for the whole year and I think i am overcoming my barriers now that have held me back. I think you did a great thing joining the Wildcats!!!! I joined too a couple of months ago because they are big on accountability and support. i love being a Wildcat and i hope you do too.